Ozine 2011 and other things

Yup I went to a convention called Ozine 2011 after a long time that I haven't been into any conventions before I've been so busy with work but thank goodness that I still have time to enjoy things like this.

I haven't written in this blog for the longest time because of the same reason. I only have internet at the office and I can't really write my blog while in there... right? I guess I can... but that would just be irresponsible.

Anyway here are pictures from Ozine 2011

To know the masked person that occasionally pops up in the pictures click here. Somehow even if he's my only companion attending this convention I was still happy. Uhh... I'm always happy when I'm with him. Hahaha. I should shut up now. ^_________^

Anyway, I'm also attending classes this summer... what kind of classes? I'll post it some day... hehehe...

I also bought a second-hand phone because my old phone is really starting to bug me. No one can call me properly on that phone and most of the time it shows me a white screen... how could I contact anyone with that? So there... new phone... and it's purple... and I'm very happy about it.

Well that's all for now. I want to blog about something else but I want to sleep now... so I guess next time will do.

This weekend...

This weekend I went to LB. I was supposed to go to Komikstrip but I didn't wake up early so I missed everything... yup... everything... I didn't even go inside.

Well somehow I was thankful for not going inside. I might "accidentally" buy things like manga or comics. I can't really spend so much right now since I have to buy a bag and I think there's something else I need to save my money for.

So I met up with friends and we decided to do something else. I also got a copy of our game. It looks awesome hahaha. I'm not being biased but considering how short the time we had to do it, it was pretty cool to actually make something like this. The stories they had told me about the people who tried our game were all funny. They didn't even realized that the character they were playing was a girl. Maybe putting 'What a beautiful day... and I'm a girl.' should be done in the beginning of the game. Just to make things clear before they can proceed. Hahaha. But of course I'm not serious about this. I think... XD

Anyway, I really wished I can go to Feb fair though... I somehow want to buy something like this...

 

It's cute. It's comfortable. It's warm on my head... and it's a wolf hat! I just wish that I would find where I can buy these things. I want a wolf on my head as well... without killing any animals.

So as usual... we sang. It was the usual karaoke place that we always go to if we want to sing Japanese songs. I really think this is becoming a habit of mine. I truly enjoy singing with my friends. Even if we can't read Japanese (well kanji to be exact), or we are not hitting the right notes we still keep on singing... it's just pure fun!

Compulsory valentines post

A few years ago I remember posting in this same blog almost on the same day with nothing but hate and pain inside my heart.

I do believe that back then I would never even think that this day would come. I celebrated Valentines with nothing but joy inside my heart. Although it's funny since I celebrated Valentines with the same person from the earlier post... so I wonder... what changed?

Have I learned my lesson now that I shouldn't be expecting too much? Had he learned his lesson that he should appreciate me more? Did I be more contented in what I have? Are we more mature now?

I would never know the answer to these things but... who cares? As long as I am happy now and not crying my heart out then it should be good. That's what really matters anyway, right?

So just to fill up space... because I haven't written in this blog for more than a month... I would write a general Valentines thingy based purely on my opinion and from what I've learned in life

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Imagine this situation...
You go inside a restaurant you've never been in. The menu overhead looks delicious but you've heard many bad things (as well as good things) about the food in that place. You're in a dilemma... shall you try eating there or not?

Tried but everything was bad
You tried the food there but it was just not good... mediocre would not even describe the food you've eaten. You wasted your money and your time for eating there . You even got sick because the food was just bad.

Didn't order anything and left
You left. You will never know how good or bad the food was. You turn around and leave because you are afraid to explore things you didn't know about. So until now you would wonder what would have happened if you take the risk...

Okay... somehow I tried to connect the situation with love. If you can see the connection already then you're thinking the same way I do... if you don't.. well try to understand what I'm saying here. Please.

Love can only be understood once you actually felt it. Seeing it in movies, reading it in books or just knowing about it from different mediums will never cut it. It might give you the feeling of what you want to have but can never tell you what you will really have once you're in that situation. Sometimes the things you know about love based on those mediums may look like the real thing but somehow it would not be exactly the same. For one... the person you love might now be a vampire *rolls eyes*.

It's the same as how food looks so delicious in commercials or how everything seems perfect in TV: the cheese melts perfectly, the toothpaste have that twirl in the end, everyone loves burgers... well it may have similar resemblance in real life but once you're there you would know the difference.

So you've seen the commercial, heard good and bad stories from people who've experienced it and have known all about it... but would that be enough for you to try it and once you try it would you enjoy the feeling or would you have a bad stomachache.. or in terms of love, a broken heart.

You could just turn around and forever ask yourself a lot of "what if it was like this" or "what if it was like that".

You could also try it and in the end cry under the pouring cold water from your shower, curse the day you knew the person and be bitter about love...

or you could be the third one


Tried it... and just be happy
There is no such thing as "happily ever after" in eating in some restaurant or fast food... you would just enjoy the food while you're consuming it. Just be happy that you're there with your hunger satiated. You will come back for more or try the new things that will be presented to you. You may not like the other things on the menu or may be sad that some of the items you've loved will be gone.

But that's just the way life is. That's just how restaurants are... and more importantly that's just how people are. Nothing is constant so try to appreciate them while they are still there. You would never know when the place will close down or when your loved one will be taken from this life.


uhm... I don't know what to say anymore so I guess this will be my last paragraph. Don't be afraid to step inside and try it. Be it love or a new restaurant. Who knows... you might actually like it and you might even grow old with it and I'm speaking for both your loved one and the restaurant.

hehehehe

Christmas 2010

December 26… yup it’s time for a Christmas blog post! I think it’s required or something. Moving on…

As I grow older I feel that my material gifts keeps on decreasing. This Christmas I received only one gift from my friend but aside from that I have no other gifts from my friends. I also received money from my parents but I haven’t used it to buy anything yet and due to circumstances I can’t really use it to buy the thing I want to buy. I also received gifts from work and I’m so thankful that they added me to their list even if I’m still new. *tears of joy* Plus my mother finally bought me a hula-hoop. (\^o^/)

But it wasn’t like this when I was younger. Let’s say 10 years ago I eagerly woke up every December 25 so that I could use my new purse/bag and go around the neighbourhood. My ninang/ninong just lived nearby back then so I can easily pester them every Christmas. I used to come with my brother as well so even my brother’s godparents give me gifts too. I always get a lot every Christmas… toys, money, and school stuff. I always enjoyed receiving stationary and writing materials for some reason even more than toys. The point is I never ran out of gifts and I remember my hands would get tired from tearing those Christmas wrappers.

But now everything is different.

I think people are getting poorer or maybe I’m just getting older or maybe I am getting more contented.

I suddenly stopped wishing from anything from anyone. “It’s better to give than to receive”. I started believing in that quote quite strongly than ever before. Sometimes even if they don’t give me any material things just a simple “Merry Christmas” out of their busy schedule would suffice. I know that they can’t give anything else so I am grateful to have received something from them at all. Yup, I guess I got older. Only old people would think of things like this.

But seriously there was only one gift that I was waiting for this Christmas… sadly I didn’t get it. Oh well.

Moving on… even if I didn’t get more presents and that certain gift I guess I was happy this Christmas. There is no such thing as the perfect way to spend Christmas… how you spend your Christmas Eve is surely your best way of celebrating Christmas. My brother and I watched One Piece episodes and Invader Zim (Hooray for Zim Marathon!) on Christmas Eve while eating our humble feast. That was very enjoyable and I think it’s the best way we could spend our Christmas.

So there is my Christmas post… there’s something else I would be posting but I’m too lazy to post that for now…

Anyway

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Going home alone

I am used to it so I don’t really care. There are times though that I enjoy going home more than when I am with someone. I can walk at my own pace. I can listen to music and ignore everything around me. I can even have a mental conversation with myself… although the last one was not recommended.

Since I am alone I can take my time in enjoying stuff like this. I am often distracted too but I just don't wander off when I'm with someone. I don't want the person I am with to feel burdened because of my habits.

But I would love to walk home with someone, I want to have someone to talk with. It’s not healthy to talk to myself so at least I want someone to talk to or share things with. It gets lonely especially when I'm walking or when something would remind me of my friends or when I see other people with friends or special someones.

Also, eating isn't the same when I don't have anyone to talk to or share the food with. It's not really lonely but somehow it's not fun. I sometimes think of fun or interesting stuff while eating... but since I'm alone I can't laugh about it. That really sucks.

But seriously, I don't care about it anymore... I laugh and have a conversation with myself. Just mentally, of course, since I don't want anyone to think I'm crazy. I like to think that I'm having a date with myself. The thought seemed to be working for me. I don't feel a little bit lonely.

Some things...

Looking back…

Sometimes after accomplishing something a person will look back at the days of anxiety and endless nights of caffeine just to laugh at the experience. It feels good. However, in my case even if I’m in the middle of those days I already look forward to that certain day of recollection. “Someday, I’ll look back on this day and laugh about it.” That’s one of the ways on how I motivate myself. I always look forward to that tomorrow where everything should be ok.

Anyway, I finished it. The SP I worked on for many months… I’ve finished it. I never thought that it would be near perfect but it somehow exceeded my expectations. There were many wrong moves and mistakes in the past but I don’t like regretting them. I think of them as very important factors that brought me to where I am now.

I am looking back at those days and nights.

I am laughing. I do feel good.

Being in LB

I always like being in LB. That place gives me some sense of freedom. Ewan. Even though half of me feel embarrassed staying in other people’s houses, the other half can sleep soundly without even thinking about such embarrassment. I like being with friends and that’s for sure. They never let me feel loneliness. I am so grateful for having friends like those.

I like LB. But I know that Elbi now is not my home anymore. My time had passed. I know LB had always welcomed me but those welcoming smiles would decrease every year and someday there won’t be a familiar smile anymore. I’ll become just another stranger in a place I once called my home.

There are still left though but even with all that I still felt like it’s not my home anymore. I know exactly what or rather who is missing.

The main reason why I feel contented in LB just wasn’t there anymore. This made a lot of difference. This made the whole place unfamiliar to me.

Although I know it’s already too much to ask but I wanted him to be with me as well. If we could walk the same street, road or grass we used to walk on then maybe I could feel like I’m 2 or 4 years back in time again. Maybe I could also recall what it felt like to be home in LB again.

SOMA cum laude 2010 video

I'm always proud of my videos... I treat them like my babies or something... I just love making videos and will find any excuse to make one.

If I add all the time I spent in making this video it would take one day. This one is very special because the video clips were really behaved while I was making it. The clips were cooperating with me and so was my laptop. In the end I can't help but watch it again and again and again...



This one I made to promote SOMA's activity (note: any form of excuse) I wasn't required to make a video but I volunteered myself just for the pleasure of making a video.

Trivia about this video:
1. Even though R2 was also covered by the quiz contest. I had no idea that it was included so there are no r2 clips found here.
2. I actually used the trailer for code geass episode 24-25 on the video. I just placed it there and the timing and emotion I was aiming for was there. I was too amazed to even think it was accidental.
3. The code geass clips doesn't have subtitles... since I used the English dub version. The only voice I like in the English dub of Code Geass was Cornelia... No one would ever be able to defeat Jun Fukuyama as Lelouch.
4. I got lazy on that part where the videos were zooming out. Even my brother knew I could've at least cleaned that part...
5. I edited O Fortuna since it was so long and because the volume levels of the silent part and the loud parts were so significantly different that it is annoying.


as you can see I enjoyed myself. Whatever the outcome of this video I was happy.