Saturday, May 19, 2007

Swimming

Nagswimming kami ni Jeo sa Villa Celedonia. Kahit na sinabi ko kay mama na madami kami... sa totoo lang dalawa lang kami ni Jeo. Masaya at malabo ang araw na ito. Ngayon ko lang napansin na isa akong mabait na babae. Kasi may isang grupo ng mga lalaki na nasa tabi namin. Grabe ang sasaya nila masyado. At sa isang hindi maipaliwanag na dahilan lagi na lang sila nakikisama sa amin ni Jeo. Tinuturuan ko sana si Jeo na lumangoy pero pati yung isa sa mga lalaking iyon ay gusto na rin na magpaturo sa akin. Grabe nga eh. Hindi ko naman sila kilala tapos feeling pa. Pero sa totoo lang hindi talaga ako naasar kasi ewan nakakatuwa sila. Simpleng manyak nga lang. 

WALA SILANG KARAPATAN NA HAWAKAN ANG PAA KO!!!!!!


Anyways... natutuwa ako kasi tinuruan ako ng Jeo ng onti sa paggigitara. Ang sakit sa kamay. Medyo nagets at naaalala ko. Hindi nga ako makapaniwala na seseryosohin ko yun. Kasi minsan kaya hindi ako natututo ay dahil hindi ko sineseryoso ang mga nagtuturo sa kin. Wow! Kaseryoso-seryoso pala si Jeo. Hindi ko alam yun ah. 


Sa isang mundong pinapagalaw ng salapi hindi ko sukat akalain na may naniniwala pa pala sa barter trade. Kasi nagkulang ang pera namin ni Jeo sa pamasahe. At dahil jan... binayaran namin yung driver ng kulang pero bilang kabayaran sa iba ay binigyan namin siya ng tinapay. Mukha nga silang tuwang-tuwa. Ganon siguro talaga ang mga gutom. Pero masaya dahil nakauwi kami ng matino dahil dun.

Sunday, May 6, 2007

Sorry

I'm sorry for making this site my online rant-journal.

I'm really sorry but as a human being you also know how important it is to express yourself. Especially if you can't speak about it in the real world.

>>>>>I'm waiting for another post after that I swear I'll post this one<<<

To those two boys who are always talking about XP/Nya,

I am humbly asking you two to stop it. I know that you two really fantasize about that girl too often but you don't really have to let the whole org know about it. 

Sometimes whenever I'm reading those posts I'm doubting if you are the ones writing it. You two sound like two drooling perverted stalkers. I swear when that girl joins I shall tell her your codenames and make her read each and every post that you have written about her. I doubt if those fantasies would ever come true now... well unless if she is nice or naive. 


Stop being insensitive creatures! Don't you know that you are already hurting or annoying other people because of what you are writing? Well if you don't know... I'M ONE OF THEM!

I'm sorry for being jealous! I'm just another girl right? Too useless to be of your concern. But if that is the case then stop making me feel like I am significant to the both of you. If you want to then please stop treating me as your friend. You're just hurting me everytime I see you two going on and on about her. 

I know I'm not alone for I have already had a talk with another person who is annoyed with you two.

"Ang bait mo talaga kung ako yun hindi ko na kakausapin ang dalawang yun."

Maybe I should take that advice. It's really annoying listening to the both of you.

---REN---

>>>>
To someone I call kuya,

I miss you. But do you miss me too? You always say that but you act otherwise. Sometimes I even think all you tell me are lies. But I still believe in you... because I have to. For if I start to stop trusting you, then how can I say that I love you? 

What I really miss is the man you are a year ago. Maybe before you were possessed by your ego. Can you remember your promise to protect me? That's the reason why I trusted you fully. 

But somehow I think time made you get used to me especially when I cry. Or was that how you show your affection as time goes by? Is hurting me your way to show that I'm important? Or you just want me to be your servant?

Since you want to conquer the world or become its ruler whatsoever. I think I should think about it over. I shall let you go on to do whatever you want. And tell you how I feel... I shan't. But when the time comes I shall say goodbye... I think. For you might actually lose me in just a single blink of an eye. 

I know that you're just lonely for I am too. But that's the reason why you found me and I found you. Don't you realize that I'm here all along? You're searching for a friend, am I wrong? But can I not be that friend you're looking for? Or do I still have to beg?

I know that I may not be enough. I'm not that smart nor that tough. I know there are many things we cannot understand about each other. And that makes us fight even longer. But believe me when I say that I love you. For that is the only thing in my life that is ever true. 

Please change and try to understand. All you need to do is talk to me and lend me your hand. I'm listening, you know I do. And for the last time I shall say to you...


I miss you a lot even more than you know.


-Yume
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^Why do I feel like all the ends of the sentences rhyme? Oh well... maybe it's just my imagination


>>>>

Again sorry for ranting. You could not read this if you don't want to. I'm not forcing you. But remember this: I'm just a human... I have a heart too.

Friday, May 4, 2007

I like talking to you... i think

It hurts... 

something inside of me hurts but I cannot pinpoint what exactly it is.

He is slowly hurting me without him knowing it. He doesn't have any right to hurt me for he is only a friend. But his words hurt. They hurt so much that I truly want to cry.

"Your tears make me laugh."

How do you know that I'm faking it? Can you feel what I am feeling?

Some people think that they know everything but they are totally WRONG! No man can know everything. Do you know the name of the Taho vendor that passed by the hospital 20 meters away from our house?

If you do... then... do you know when exactly the Taho vendor shouted the first "tahooooo" this week?

If no then... See! I told you so! Hehehehe

If yes then you must be that stupid taho vendor.

But my point really is that you can never know everything because you don't need to know it. What you already know and what destiny would let you know may suffice already.


I think I should stop ranting now... this feeling might even be worse than I think.

Thursday, May 3, 2007

Quotes

Finally I'm home.

My province by the way is Leyte which is almost a one day trip from my home. We ride on the bus to get there then we get aboard a ship to cross the island and then ride the same bus again.

(The bus also goes inside the ship. So it is the same bus)

So we should basically live in that bus for almost one day. 

D'arvit!

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
"Evil wins only when Good men do nothing." 
-sticker on the wall of the bus


"He who walks honestly, walk secretly" 
-it's a proverb... i think


"Una naging kaibigan kita
Ikalawa nagka-crush ako sa iyo

baka sa ikatlo ma-inlove na ako nyan sa iyo." 
-galing sa kapatid ko for his special cheverlou



"There are a thousand and one ways to kill a person

and one of those is to make that person fall in love with you."
-dreamt of that quote


"How can you make my stupid name sound so beautiful?"



"... it was beauty that killed the beast." 
-King Kong