tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-63190954552887663122024-03-14T05:21:31.789+08:00One day moreJust a blog. Nothing more, nothing lessEdrailhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16561232865740147214noreply@blogger.comBlogger139125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6319095455288766312.post-30487628881899271342019-04-28T00:00:00.002+08:002019-04-28T00:18:11.505+08:00April2019 musings and stuffThe past few months of trying to draw (and print) is a constant struggle of trying new stuff and learning stuff. A ritual of "what if I do this? What if I copy this?" ending with "it’s ugly af" or "that actually works." This was harder two inktobers ago but I guess the discipline and concepts I learned then really came in handy now. <br />
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I want to think that it's actually getting better but the idea of believing in myself is so foreign that there's a detachment every time I think about it. I don't think it's <i>good</i> at all but I get giggly and excited when someone shows appreciation for it. I am always proud in all of my creations (especially if I put them out in public) regardless if they’re good or not, but in the end, it’s the validation of others that will put worth in it. I’m not saying that’s a good trait, but it’s the way I am. As Lady Gaga had worded it, “I live for the applause”. <br />
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There's also that crazy raging thought of "if I learn this I'll rule the world" and it manifests in tutorials I’ve watched and read. Just a disclaimer though, I never saw anything as easy, the determinant if I’ll do it is, if it was within “doable” range; time constraint and ability are always regarded when judging something as doable. But then again, that imagery of being really good is always suppressed every time it comes out. It’s a scary selfish thought for me and I don’t like the ‘me’ when I indulge in such thoughts. Me with actual legit self-confidence? Now that’s a concept. <br />
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My usual thoughts are: I won't ever learn it and this endeavor won't be something big. <br />
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Indeed, I've already put myself down even before the scumbags come to prey on my low self-esteem. There are always scumbags and in my years of struggling, I’ve learned that it was easier to protect yourself if you’ve always put yourself too low for anyone to hurt. <i>Advance ako mag-isip. </i>You can’t step on me because my foot is already on my person. <br />
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So yeah, It's just funny for me, at this point in time, to even think of calling my doodles as art. I've <i>seen </i>art and it's not like my shit and my shit won't ever touch that level. I don’t strive to become an artist, I just like drawing and if they come out as recognizable caricatures of what I wanted to do then that already means the world to me. <br />
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On the writing side, I’ve been reading novels again (ehem MXTX cnovels). But the interesting part is that these novels are translated from Chinese. And I believe that no matter how perfect the translation is, reading it from the author’s writing and in the author’s language is still the best. The whole plot and the grand scheme of things are good to read, but the nuances and references an author could put in their story make the communication between the reader and author more personal. And even with the author’s notes, I can feel the gap. <br />
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However, despite saying that and acknowledging the gap, the brilliance of this author still shines through her works. The imagery, comedy, suspense, gore, horror, angst, drama, and love story (and so much more) were all conveyed properly and constructed carefully that I cannot even believe what I’m reading. <br />
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I can praise all her works but that begs for another blog post. I’d rather focus on what it meant to me as an author. Reading her plot devices and world building, gave me a sense of shame in how lazy I am regarding my own plots especially world-building. Though I agree that my strength lies in characterization and dialogues, even that pales in comparison to her characters. In my defense, I do fanfics so my characterizations come from pre-existing OCs, so it’s more of a character study than conception. (Look how defensive I am in this part in comparison to the previous topic) <br />
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A disclaimer again, I am not a writing or literature person and I have failed to be a journalist; I’m a programmer that likes to write. My educational background taught me algorithms and codes, not plot devices or writing styles. But I do love sharing stories and so far writing is an effective medium for me. I still dream of publishing <i>someday</i> and it was a dream of mine since 2001, but for now and for me, my works aren’t even worthy of payment (I don’t do commissions). <br />
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Like drawing, I do this for fun and self-satisfaction. But unlike drawing, I’ve focused on improving on writing for years so I am surer of what I’m doing. Not confident, but just ‘surer’. I’ve had so many struggles that I managed to pull through and now I know myself enough as a writer (and how a piece of shit I am). <br />
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Like, to avoid plot holes, I re-read my story. If I feel that my vocab is weak or I don’t know the fandom’s setting, I read articles and other fics (yeah fanfic writers love to throw unfamiliar words out there). Or if I feel that I need a different style in my fic, I read other novels. Sometimes I pick particular books to read or listen to so I can use that as an inspiration on<i> how </i>I’m writing my fic. For example, before, I listened to Dracula so I can write a vampire Osomatsu. So yeah, reading Mxtx’s three books was also my way to skill up and I’m glad I learned many things. <br />
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The next challenge now is to put them to use.<br />
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So that’s done and in another topic — <br />
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Regarding intimidation, oh my dear, <i>the world</i> in itself is intimidating and if I always look at it with fear then I won’t get anywhere. True, I get overwhelmed a lot, but I just need to sort and prioritize to get through it. Instead of eating the whole thing in one bite, I learned to cut in it bite-sized bits (and chew really quickly if needed) — but that’s a different story. <br />
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Intimidation is not something that can bring me down, I will cry, rant and whine, but I know how to pick myself up and face them anyway. I’ve done it so many times before that I already know my pattern. Thus, people with high self-esteem, with godlike talents or burning passion, will not hurt my eyes. In fact, I enjoy watching people like that, they’re really <i>really</i> interesting and sometimes even inspirational. So unless they do something to me, they won’t make me stop in pursuing my mediocre goals, and at the same time, they can’t influence my pace. I’ve learned years and years ago how much it hurts to compare yourself with others so I won’t do that again. <br />
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BUT, but, but, being scared to talk to people has always been an inherent sickness of mine. It’s not about skills or position, sometimes, I’m just really scared of talking to people.<br />
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I like passionate people because people are always the most beautiful when they talk about the things they like (this is a quote somewhere. I forgot). I don’t need to know or to relate to see how much happiness the thing they like brings them. So I respect it and be happy for them, and I promised myself to value that. <br />
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I know this won’t ensure that they would respect what I like too — I mean there are so many assholes — but I’m just hoping that by doing this, the fire won’t die. To me that’s the saddest thing, seeing someone who used to be so enthusiastic slowly burn out. The beauty, the pure joy that used to shine in their eyes, just gone and I can’t do anything to bring them back. It’s empty, devoid of warmth and love and it’s just sad. I mean, even hating something is better, because the opposite of love is indifference. I’ve seen it and I hated it. <br />
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….Okay I have run out of shit to talk about to now and I’m just rambling. And I don’t know how to conclude this...<br />
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<i>Kaya ganito na lang bigla na lang mawawala. </i><br />
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Edrailhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16561232865740147214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6319095455288766312.post-54782613861142455202018-12-26T23:11:00.000+08:002018-12-26T23:13:46.292+08:00Baguio 2018!<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Part 2<br />
After sleeping and the darker half of the day<br />
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Day 2 and going home<br />
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I did two creative challenges this year: inktober for October and Nanowrimo for November. I’ve been doing Nanowrimo on and off for three years already, while this is my second inktober for my fandom, Osomatsu-san.</div>
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It’s not really new to me but this year was more difficult compared to last but despite the odds, I still managed to finish both. BOO YEAH! BOTH!<br />
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But first, let us discuss Inktober. Here it was in a nutshell:<br />
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Inktober was not really my strong suit. First of all, I’m not an artist and I haven’t learned the foundation of drawing. Although I will never call myself an artist, I do enjoy drawing and doodling. This was one those things that I do because it’s Osomatsu-san. It’s like buying merch, I do it <i>because</i> it’s Osomatsu-san; if it’s any other fandom -- I will never do this kind of thing. It’s just frustrating and not to mention very difficult. Why? (1) I have no idea what I’m doing, (2) I don’t think my art is any good and (3) I’m only doing this for fun. There was never any intention to prove that I improved or to show that I’m good. I just do it for fun and I get surprised that this year’s inktober was a bit <i>better</i>(?) than before. Maybe? I don’t know. Maybe I am deluding myself but with every piece I try to make, I do it a challenge for myself. I mean, it’s already a challenge to draw on time, but there’s also that part of me telling myself to try something I never did before – also to draw hands. Because <b>fuck</b> hands.</div>
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But in the end, I managed to do everything! All the days and all the prompts as much as I can with limited time and limited skill. I do believe I did a good job, it’s not the best but I reached the requirement, which for me is already a success.<br />
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I like to be realistic and set the bar low for me.<br />
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And that’s exactly what I did for Nanowrimo.<br />
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The previous Nanowrimos were terrible because I liked to shoot for the stars. I tried making 5k a day so that if I missed the next days there were still some word count I could fall back on. Big mistake. Because there were days that I didn’t write, it got harder to pick up where I left off. Ultimately causing me more stress and failing at it altogether. There was also a year where I tried to plan ahead and I still kept that.<br />
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So for short, I had two attempts in Nanowrimo I could think back on to prepare me for this year’s.</div>
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It’s a <i>furikaeri</i> and there were some things I want to keep, some issues I have to take note of and some steps that I could try so I could solve those issues.<br />
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So yeah, like I said I tried to go slow and steady this year. I tried not to miss a day and just aim for 1k-2k words a day. I also hyped myself up by tweeting about it and talking about it just to get those endorphins to continue running.<br />
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The people from MatsuPH among other friends in the fandom also helped a lot. Although I did tell them specifically what they should do to help me. Thus my post in the MatsuPH server.<br />
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<span style="color: #666666;">1. tag mic for all magical au and magical girl au art.</span><br />
<span style="color: #666666;">2. Tag mic when you see OsoToto. bonus point kung magical</span><br />
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This helped a lot because I got inspirations, references and just the general everyday boost I needed to continue. Even though they had no idea what was happening in the story and I was just giving snippets, it did not feel lonely. This I think was very important because the previous Nanowrimos felt exactly like that – writing for the void. Even until now I still have some backlog on the things gave me and I really appreciate everything.<br />
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Of course, there were still days where I fall back and think that this wasn’t good or this did not make sense, or that no one really cared about this. And there were also days where I got sick and those days were hard because even if I was at home, there was no <b>writing </b>happening. There were words but it's not 5k and there's this little imp inside your mind that would tell you that "you should be hitting more words because you're just stuck at home!"<br />
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The worst thing you could do to stop being productive was to worry that you were not productive. For me, it always causes a downward spiral into sadness and hopelessness, but I know myself enough to spot where that spiral begins.<br />
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However, just knowing about it doesn’t mean I can stop it. So what I planned to do was to just think about the 1k words as the requirement. It was a battle against my inner demons again but as long as I think of numbers as numbers, insecurities shouldn’t matter.<br />
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As long as I can reach that 1k words today I should be able to fix things later on during proofreading. I know it’s that bad habit of relying on future me, but somehow during the struggle, it helped. Because I have that “I can still fix it some other time if I just manage to make it to the requirement” in mind, I still puked out the words.<br />
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There are still some things I need to do for that story, like proofreading and uploading, but for now. I managed to do 50,550 words in one month and I believe that is a great achievement. I FUCKING FINALLY FINISHED A NANOWRIMO!</div>
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PS. Do take note that I was doing both these challenges <i>while</i> studying for JLPT. Now, that shit is suicide and I swear never to do that again.</div>
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Edrailhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16561232865740147214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6319095455288766312.post-5617974851418961452018-06-16T12:00:00.000+08:002018-06-18T00:31:53.092+08:001/2 : An OsoKara ZineSo today we released the OsoKara Zine.Yay<br />
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been quite challenging and I'm just glad that it came out beautifully.
But surely if not for all the effort of the contributors it wouldn't have been this close to being amazing. And I really appreciate all the help I got from here... from Nogi who
served as my "eye" for details because god knows I have none, from Nori who gave good advices for the
zine, from Tundrea who checked the zine so thoroughly and for Komo and
Para who supported me.<br />
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I probably increased my skills in MS Word because of this. I mean, I only used the program for typing and I have a slight idea that I can use it for functions that I need for the zine but building it all from there... that was unexpected.<br />
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Anyway, although I admit that there were times I got really annoyed and stressed because of this, it was all still good in the end. I "met" more people in the fandom and I think I left a good impression even amidst the problems. So in the end it's good... and in the end the zine still felt like it was worth something to do.<br />
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So anyway, click <a href='online.fliphtml5.com/dnev/hyzg/'>here</a> to view the zine and <a href='bit.ly/osokarazine'>here</a> to download.
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But if you wanna see the zine. Here it is ready for your perusal:
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<br />Edrailhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16561232865740147214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6319095455288766312.post-54872301670001589272018-01-20T15:57:00.000+08:002019-01-01T15:58:44.936+08:002017: review of shit I wrote<div style="text-align: justify;">
Another self-indulgent review of stuff I wrote last year in terms of word count. This is purely Osomatsu-san because I don't really write anything else now</div>
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<b>2016 carryovers: 36365</b></div>
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<b>Oneshots: 11 titles with 31825 words</b></div>
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<b>Multichapter: 6 titles with <span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: 10pt; text-align: right;">106636 </span>words</b></div>
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<b>Also wrote some extra stuff: 6 titles with 18077 words</b></div>
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With a total of <b>192903</b> words!</div>
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So even if I have no data to compare my shit with. Here are the numbers I've gathered:<br />
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<b>Total fanfics: 10 (9 are for Osomatsu. 2 still ongoing)</b><br />
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<b>Total published words for fanfics: 95,858 (with 93,802 for Osomatsu fanfics. WOW)</b><br />
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I noticed something very important while I was getting these word counts. The last update I did for Heartbeats was on April 2016, and the first fanfic I've written for Osomatsu-san was also last April 2016. Something happened to me that day. It's like the day I've casted my humanity aside and jumped into this bottomless dark pit. Back then I really thought that after making one fic I could easily go back and be normal again. Apparently, that was not the case.<br />
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I really blame Osomatsu for everything. I'm just so inspired all the fucking time and it's so easy to write in this fandom. I enjoy it though, and I still have so many things I want to write that I hope I get to put all these ideas out there.<br />
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Hopefully 2017 would also be kind to me! And if this fandom continues, here's to reaching 100k word count for JUST Osomatsu-san!Edrailhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16561232865740147214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6319095455288766312.post-45362323013306584022017-01-08T09:38:00.000+08:002017-01-08T09:38:11.033+08:00First post of the yearStarted my year with the usual suspects: fandom, overtime at work, spending money on shit and of course thinking of doing something new!<br />
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So today I finally tried that kenjutsu class. It was so much fun!<br />
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There was an advance class when I came in so basically I just had to try my best and mimic everything. I sucked though and I can't even remember how many times I said sorry.<br />
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KARAOKE WITH A REVENGE!Edrailhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16561232865740147214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6319095455288766312.post-40937764916209502822016-12-22T17:34:00.000+08:002016-12-24T17:36:05.819+08:00Just a reaction video for YOI's last ep<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Weebs being weebs. We all took a break from work after this.Edrailhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16561232865740147214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6319095455288766312.post-10363946138391756912016-12-14T18:39:00.001+08:002016-12-14T18:39:21.267+08:00SOMA watches YOI ep 10 ending creditsSOMA is and will always be a family to me. It seems like no matter how old we get or where we are in life it's always so easy and so comforting to come back to them. With them, I have no fear of judgment (maybe because all of us are just so rotten? :P) and no fear of being ignored.<br />
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It's funny that even if we're already drinking wine, even if some of us already been to Japan and even if we talk about family and work, we always seem to go back and talk about anime, manga, weeb stuff. You really can't take SOMA away from a SOMAjin and that is the best thing about it.<br />
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First night in Japan and basically what the whole trip was like most of the time<br />
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That's basically begging me to explain all about OsomatsuEdrailhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16561232865740147214noreply@blogger.com0Shibuya, Tokyo, Japan35.6617773 139.7040505999999635.6101768 139.62336959999996 35.713377799999996 139.78473159999996tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6319095455288766312.post-88086816695300096882016-10-07T08:56:00.001+08:002016-10-07T08:57:05.115+08:00WordVomit: 2016-10-07As you grow older, you'll realize that the different kinds of love that you once read about are real and you'll experience most of them or receive some of them throughout your life.<br />
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You may fail to recognize it at first but if you are mature enough to accept what it is, it would be the greatest thing ever! I swear, the worst thing that you could do to yourself is deny your heart of love. For whatever reason you have: got hurt before, don't believe in love, etc... never... EVER... stop your heart from loving.<br />
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However, if your heart feels nothing anymore then we can't do anything about that. I mean we can't force it to feel something it can't feel. But that is a different issue and a different thing entirely....<br />
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although I hope that somehow, someday you'll get to feel love again. Because no matter what happens I still want to see you happy.Edrailhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16561232865740147214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6319095455288766312.post-23588710577687631732016-10-03T20:19:00.003+08:002016-10-03T20:19:38.229+08:00In eLBi we call it "Freshie"Today I learned that certain universities call their freshmen as "Frosh". Why.<br />
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I am confused, but I'll keep an open-mind. The world is a mysterious place.<br />
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PS. German siya ng frogs. I don't know if that made this revelation better or worse.Edrailhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16561232865740147214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6319095455288766312.post-5336122114072254832016-08-30T10:54:00.000+08:002016-08-30T10:54:33.729+08:00Do moreOk this is just an idea.<br />
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I want to do lots of things, sometimes I want to do all those things at the same time... but guess what? Laziness often takes over and all those "wants" remain "ideas" until they are eventually left too long inside my head and eventually forgotten.<br />
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And that is the problem... no matter how many books I add to my 'To-read' list or many ideas I chuck into my 'Idea Bin' those things won't come into reality if I don't get up and actually do it.<br />
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It's the same as drawing. I suck. I really suck. But whining that I suck and feeling sad about it won't make me suck less, it would just make me stay in this zone of suck where I don't move forward and (heavens forbid that I suck more) don't move backward.<br />
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So I'm trying this thing where I love all my accomplishments and be truly happy that I did something in order to have more to look forward to. Like, "hey I have minimal typo errors this time, yay for me." Or "look, this pose is less awkward compared to how it looked 30 mins ago" I try to be less harsh to myself. I've been really harsh to myself for n years, it's time to reconcile.<br />
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So yeah, those tutorials won't draw themselves and those fics won't write themselves. Those pictures won't paint themselves and those other projects won't create themselves. Those reference materials won't study themselves! I don't have tiny elves that will help me do all those things for me and that is the harsh reality of life that we all inherently knew ever since we were born.<br />
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Those ideas will be forgotten if I don't do something about it and even if I forgot them I feel sad for all those scenes, images and OCs that were never born because of my lazy ass.<br />
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Ok rant over.<br />
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I guess someday I would look back on this post and re-read it and I'll be glad/annoyed that I wrote something like this. (Hey future me! Remember this? You actually wrote it). But whatever the future me is doing now, I just hope that she did whatever she wanted to do today when she wrote this post. And if you did, great job! If you didn't, we should work on that.... :)Edrailhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16561232865740147214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6319095455288766312.post-79441423623581419272016-08-08T23:13:00.000+08:002016-08-09T23:14:00.020+08:00Pokemon Go is now live in the Philippines! This is not a drill! Pokemon Go is finally fucking available in the Philippines and my new phone line just got approved in time for it. Perfect timing I might say!<br />
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So my Saturday was spent on walking around and catching Pokemons, Sunday was basically the same. Monday morning in the office was also very interesting. I love that my friends are all playing it, if they can. I love that I am actually enjoying this.<br />
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For set list and information go <a href="http://paranoid-rhythm.tumblr.com/post/147833460499/granrodeo-722-treasure-candy-live-tour" target="_blank">here</a>, because my friend is far better than I am in this department.<br />
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Anyway, so this is officially one of the best things that happened to me this year... if not THE BEST that happened to me during the first half. I was really really excited about this event ever since that announcement where Kiiyan even mentioned Philippines. LIKE WHOAH. WAIT. HOLD EVERYTHING. IS THIS THE REAL LIFE OR IS THIS JUST FANTASY?!<br />
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I know that it is nearly impossible to see Granrodeo live here in the Philippines so this is everything I could ever hope for.<br />
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If I should summarize that night in one sentence... it's glorious. JUST PURE HAPPINESS. Kishow's vocals were on point and amazing. My love him was renewed in every song and I was just reminded why and how this man had captivated me for five years.<br />
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Like how on earth am I still addicted to this series after it that had already ended? Where is the stop button for this fandom?<br />
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But here I am still writing fanfics for Osomatsu-san, and having new ideas everyday I might add. I vomited a multi-chapter angst <a href="http://archiveofourown.org/works/6441442/chapters/14744572" target="_blank">fic</a>. A one-shot <a href="http://archiveofourown.org/works/6693448" target="_blank">fluff fic</a>. And a one-shot (hopefully a one-shot, PLEASE HELP ME STOP) <a href="http://archiveofourown.org/works/7112575" target="_blank">AU fic </a><br />
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I've experimented some stuff while writing these fanfics and it turned out nice. I'm hoping to apply them in my original stories soon. Speaking of originals: Heartbeats is on hiatus, ZOLE is still ongoing and it's still gives me mixed emotions every single time I proofread it.<br />
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For fanarts, I just made one doodle... which basically means I may or may not be practicing drawing enough. I'll try to fix that this month.<br />
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(sings)Welcome welcome to Osomatsu-san hell~ You are never coming back from Osomatsu-san hell.<br />
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And for the cherry on top of this luscious sundae of broships and problematic characters, I just pre-ordered not one, but two... TWO nendoroids. Back then I was able to stop myself from buying that cute Len Kagamine nendo among other nendos that I really really wanted to buy... <br />
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I wonder... what will happen to me if Osomatsu-san would have another season? When will it end?Edrailhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16561232865740147214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6319095455288766312.post-9931864467171292822016-04-28T19:51:00.001+08:002016-04-28T19:51:33.903+08:0020160428 word vomit<div dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-bottom: 0pt; margin-top: 0pt;">
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So basically my sister and I started to listen to <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hamilton_(musical)" target="_blank">Hamilton's</a> OBC Soundtrack on Spotify, and now we're addicted. It's very inspiring and all the songs are just amazing. </div>
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Edrailhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16561232865740147214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6319095455288766312.post-1032614808541512352016-03-14T09:15:00.001+08:002016-03-14T09:15:30.805+08:00Trying to artThe month just started but I'm feeling productive already.<br />
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I'm still writing Heartbeats and despite all the blocks I've been going through I still managed to update. Sadly there's like a month gap between the recent chapters and it's disappointing compared to my weekly schedule last year.<br />
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I also made a oneshot fanfic this month...which is a great thing for me since I really planned to go on fanfic hiatus due to lack of inspiration.<br />
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But most of all, I can not believe how active I was in drawing. I'm still learning and my hands are still stiff as ever... but I'm getting there... :)<br />
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So... just for the month of March. I finished these:<br />
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<a href="http://pyroclastic-debris.deviantart.com/art/Heartbeats-The-twins-594183232">Heartbeats: The twins</a> by <span class="username-with-symbol u"><a class="u regular username" href="http://pyroclastic-debris.deviantart.com/">pyroclastic-debris</a><span class="user-symbol regular" data-gruser-type="regular" data-quicktip-text="" data-show-tooltip=""></span></span> on <a href="http://www.deviantart.com/">DeviantArt</a>
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My lovely OCs from Heartbeats. Thinking that they are definitely younger in this one... and happier? I get all sad whenever I think about them in my story so drawing them like this makes me happy.<br />
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<a href="http://pyroclastic-debris.deviantart.com/art/ZOLE-Joy-595567007">ZOLE_Joy</a> by <span class="username-with-symbol u"><a class="u regular username" href="http://pyroclastic-debris.deviantart.com/">pyroclastic-debris</a><span class="user-symbol regular" data-gruser-type="regular" data-quicktip-text="" data-show-tooltip=""></span></span> on <a href="http://www.deviantart.com/">DeviantArt</a>
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Also Joy! Second character in the ZOLE re-draw project! I really enjoyed the colors on this one... but HOW DO YOU HAND? HOW DO YOU FEET?!<br />
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Like I said... I'm getting there. Hopefully I'll be more productive in my birthmonthEdrailhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16561232865740147214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6319095455288766312.post-87164420255360355332016-02-15T09:54:00.000+08:002016-02-15T09:54:07.126+08:00Write More! Write Now! Module 1Recently enrolled myself to this <a href="http://writing-for-children.teachable.com/courses/write-more-write-now" target="_blank">course</a> for writing, in the hopes of enhancing my writing abilities and to just give myself a small push to write more.<br />
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For the first module I have to think of why I write and my 'one thing' I have to focus on. I know I should write my answer on paper and put it somewhere I could see it but I want to also share it here... lalang.<br />
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<b>Module 1: Think big; think small</b><br />
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<b>I write because</b> there are so many stories inside my head that are just waiting to be told. There are many characters and tales so dear to me, that the only way to show my love for them is to tell their stories. I write because I want to express myself, I want to show other people how it is to live in my head. I want to share my thoughts and feelings and imagination, and in the end take the reader inside a new adventure in the hopes that he or she would like it the same way I do.<br />
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do this month that will make everything else easier or unnecessary. </b><b style="line-height: 110%;">Choose one most important
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I believe that would still be writing <a href="http://wattpad.com/story/48295887-heartbeats" target="_blank">Heartbeats</a>.<br />
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This month, I really need to fix my writing schedule in order to make things easier. I tried changing the deadline of each chapter to Sunday but that's no good, so I guess I can bring it back to Thursday, which still feels like the best day for me. But before this answer gets longer, the point is I have to get around writing that story.Edrailhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16561232865740147214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6319095455288766312.post-24902391099575483612016-02-05T00:43:00.001+08:002016-02-05T00:43:33.843+08:00Sometimes I smile<div class="blogaway-section"><p>Every morning whenever I fight my way through the battlefield that is rush hour EDSA I try my best to smile. I smile to annoy people, to entertain people, and to make fun of the whole ridiculous shitty system. <br/>
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<br/>But sometimes I try to imagine what it would feel like to see a single smiling face in a pool of stressed scowls. Dare I hope that I make someone's day just by actually trying to be pleasant in the morning. </p></div><br/>Edrailhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16561232865740147214noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6319095455288766312.post-26635798429621914632015-11-17T16:00:00.000+08:002016-01-01T11:58:18.970+08:00Short review of "Memoirs of an Imaginary friend"<div class="big450BoxBody" style="background-color: white; background-repeat: repeat-y;">
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<span style="color: #181818; font-family: Merriweather, Georgia, serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;">Just finished listening to this precious precious audiobook. The premise was interesting and the execution was superb. I won’t post any more details so as not to spoil anyone who will read this, but it’s about a special boy and his imaginary friend, narrated from the perspective of the imaginary friend. </span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #181818; font-family: Merriweather, Georgia, serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;">I listened to this because a good friend of mine recommended it. She was amazing and the book is perfect for someone like me. </span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #181818; font-family: Merriweather, Georgia, serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;">This book made me cry and smile and made me feel how lucky I was to have imaginary friends. Most of all, it made me feel that it was not wrong to have imaginary friends.</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #181818; font-family: Merriweather, Georgia, serif;"><span style="font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px;">I too have imaginary friends, and I love every single one of them. I do not want them to ever fade away. Listening to this made me realize how wonderful they really are and how I love them so much. Although I don’t talk about them to real people they are still there. Without them, I won't be the person I am today.</span></span></div>
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