This year’s
inSOMAnia was special to me. It was the first time that my organization, UP
SOMA Soshiki, held a convention outside of UPLB. It was the first time it was
held inside a mall. But aside from the venue, it was the first time that I had
attended inSOMAnia as an alumni. Also, this was the first time I sang on stage
in a convention. There was just a lot of firsts for me in this convention.
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A few days
before inSOMAnia I had been going over and over with myself whether I’ll
perform or not. My friend and I had been interested before. We talked to the
current members and opened up the topic. When I read the letter they gave to
us, I gave up hope. There was an audition and we have to sell tickets. The
audition ended last Feb 25 and it was already Feb 28 when I asked again about this.
I have decided
then that I would not sing anymore as a performer but rather, I will join the
karaoke contest. XD
Suddenly, when I
have finally decided which song to sing in the karaoke contest they contacted
me and asked if I will still perform. It
was 3 days before the actual thing. I am not that confident. I don’t have a song
prepared and even if I pick a song now I will have problems regarding the
lyrics. If only it is in English or Filipino. I know I would embarrass myself
in front of everyone. I know all these, but I still said yes.
Here is my reaction before the actual performance...
Anyway, enough
about singing... there’s more about that later. I would rather talk about the
event itself.
The members
encountered a lot of things this time that I was really proud of them for
pulling off the whole event. It was sad that there’s no merch booths and food
booth. It was a good thing that the event centre was near the food court and so
people can easily come out and eat and go in again.
I was really
impressed with the ticket system they had.
It was like
this: the whole convention centre was filled with activity booths. The booths
were seemingly easy mini games. To join the games you have to buy tokens from
the main booth. Once you win from a booth you can get points. If you
accumulated enough points then you may get the corresponding item from the main
booth. The items ranged from button pins, keychain, shirts, gloves etc.
Aside from the
activity booth, the event also had the usual cosplay competition, band performances
and art contest. I even saw the “Pinoy Superman” and his chin of absolute
perfectness during the cosplay competition. He was fabulous as Ulric. I would
never forget the last line in his speech “Hindi lahat ng kontrabida ay pangit”
which is so true...
So here are the
pictures and some videos of the event. Because of this year’s convention, I am
really looking forward for the next... congratulations children... you pulled
it off. I am so proud of you.
Pumunta ako ng LB para ayusin ang
clearance ko. Ang tagal na rin simula nang magtapos ako pero hindi ko pa rin
makuha ang diploma ko dahil hindi pa ako cleared. Kaya dahil naisip ko na
panahon na para makuha ang diploma ko ginawan ko na ng paraan para ma-clear na
ako.
Siyempre, nakatiming na feb fair
ako pupunta para masaya. Maganda ang fair sa UPLB, may perya, may banda,
maraming pagkain at kung anu-ano na pwedeng mabili. Pero hindi yan ang gusto ko
puntahan sa fair. Tuwing feb fair may
tinatawag na “cosplay day” ang org ko, ang UP SOMA Soshiki, kung san
nagcocosplay ang mga miyembro at paparada palibot ng fair. Simpleng tradisyon
na napakasaya. Ang tagal na rin nang huli akong tumuntong sa LB nang
nakacosplay. Matagal na rin na hindi ako nagcocosplay.
Siyempre may listahan ako. Ayoko naman na isa lang gagawin ko samantalang minsan-minsan lang ako makabalik ng eLBi. Kaya eto ang mga kelangan ko
gawin:
Ayusin ang clearance at iba pang
papeles
Magcosplay ng Conchita
Makabonding ang
mga kaibigan ko
Makilala ang
mga bagong miyembro ng SOMA
Natutuwa akong
sabihin na nagawa ko naman ang lahat ng yan.
Feb Fair/Cosplay day
Noong nakaraan
na taon lang nagkaroon ng perya sa UPLB feb fair. Ang daya di ba? Samantalang
ang napala lang naming dati ay brownout. Pero ok lang, hindi man ako nakapunta
nung nakaraang taon ngayon ay nakabawi na ako.
Sa totoo lang
takot ako sa mga rides. Sa EK nga hindi ako makasakay sa mga rides dun dahil sa
takot. Ayoko nang hinahagis-hagis ako, ayoko nang nahuhulog at higit sa lahat
ayoko ng nahihilo. Kaya alam ko na hindi ako magandang kasama pag pupunta ng
Star City o Enchanted Kingdom. Masaya naman ako sa pagiging KJ, kesa naman
mamatay di ba? Kung natatakot ako sa EK pano pa kaya sa perya rides? Dinig na
dinig ko yung bakal na parang may pumipitiik sa bawat ikot nung ride. Parang
masisira na lang yun bigla. Pinakakinakatakot ko ay baka biglang ma-Final
Destination pa kami.
Kaya eto kami
at ng mga kaibigan ko habang nag-iisip kung san pupunta
Oo nga pala,
nakita ko rin ang mga batang miyembro ng SOMA. Ang cute nila sa mga cosplay
nila at naaaliw lang talaga ako. Sa org house rin ako nakitulog ng gabing iyon.
Buti na lang may mapupuntahan pa rin ako kahit na matagal na akong wala sa LB.
:3
Magcocosplay
sana ako kaso maulan at maputik sa Freedom Park. Kaya ayun hindi na lang. Sayang
talaga.
Bonding...
Kinabukasan,
kanya-kanya naming ginawa ang mga kelangan naming gawin. May pumasok sa klase,
may mga naglakad ng papel at iba pa. Kumain rin kami ngayon dun sa restaurant
na gusto ko talagang kainan. Nakalimutan ko yung pangalan (Auntie Pearl’s )pero
grabe ang sarap ng pagkain dun.
Nagphotoshoot
kami pagdating ng hapon. Maulan pa rin kaya sa loob lang kami kumuha ng
larawan. Hindi na talaga kami gusto paglakarin sa feb fair ng ulan na ito.
Nananadya na nga ata eh.
Pagkatapos nun
ay karaoke. Masaya magkaraoke kasama ang mga kaibigan. Kahit na hindi ganun
kaganda ang pagkanta masaya pa rin. Nakakalimutan ko sandali lahat ng mga
iniisip ko. Nakakatanggal talaga ng stress ang pagkakaroke para sa kin.
Natapos ko
naman agad ang buong proseso ng pagcclear at pagkuha ng diploma. May natutunan
pa nga ako na bagong kanta. Ang buong akala ko kasi “UP Naming Mahal” lang ang
kelangan kong kantahin. Handa naman akong kantahin ang kanta nay un at matagal
ko nang saulado iyon. Nagulat lang talaga ako na may ISA PANG kanta na DAPAT
kantahin. “Sulong CAS”. Hindi ko alam kung san galing, pano sumulpot, at sinong
nakaisip na irequire siya. Hindi ko talaga alam ang kanta. Ngayon ko lang
narinig ang kantang iyon... pero dahil gusto ko na matapos ang lahat at marami
pa akong mas masasayang gagawin... sinaulo ko ang awitin na iyon. Sa loob ng
isang oras. Malamang narindi na ang kasama ko sa kakanta ko nun pero kelangan
ko maLSS sa kantang iyon para tumugtog siya ng tumugtog sa utak ko.
Nakanta ko
naman. Kaya nakapagpatuloy ako sa aking paglalakad ng papel.
Matapos ko
makuha ang clearance ko nalaman ko na makukuha ko na rin ang diploma ko sa oras
rin na iyon. Astig. :D Kaya onting hintay lang at nakuha ko na rin ang diploma
ko.
naghihintay lang ng diploma
sobrang bagot kung anu-ano na lang ang pinipicturan ko eh XD
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Masayang
bumalik sa LB kahit na sobrang nagtaas ang pamasahe at marami na akong hindi
kilala. Hindi na ito ang “LB ko”. Wala na ang mga teacher, instructor,
classmate, tindera at mga lugar na alam ko. Napalitan na sila ng mga bagong
mukha at bagong tindahan. Ang mga alal-ala na ginawa ko sa lugar na ito ay
hindi na rin ganoon ka-linaw.
Ngunit kahit na ganoon, parang nanumbalik sa kin
ang mga nagdaan na panahon nang bumalik ako nitong mga nakaraan na araw. Kasama
ko kasi muli ang ilan sa mga tao na nagbigay kulay sa aking pananatili sa LB
noon. Naglakad kami muli sa parehong kalsada na nilalakad namin noon papuntang
klase. Parang normal na araw lang noong estudyante pa ako. Kaya kahit sandal parang
walang pinagbago ang LB... parang naging “LB ko” uli ang lugar.
Ang saya...
sana mangyari uli ito...
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eto pang ibang mga larawan na kinuha ko ^_______________^
There are so many things I want to do in life but I don’t
really include “travelling” in that list. I don’t mind that I can’t go to many
places or try new things. I feel like I have so many things that I can do here
in front of the laptop that there is no need for me to move.
But new places can be exciting as well and if an opportunity
opens up why should I decline it?
But along with that excitement anxiety ensues. I don’t even
know why. I thought I am so used to being alone that I can handle wherever life
toss me. But I was wrong. Whenever I get to think clearly by myself those fears
resurfaces. Those questions and uncertainties would go haunting me just before
the moment when I close my eyes and drift into my dreams. I don’t like it
either but I can’t help it. During those idle times are my weakest.
What do I think about?
I think about the things I don’t know. For me it’s as
dangerous as swimming in waters you don’t know how deep. I fear that I might
not be able to do the right thing at once since it’s all fairly new. The first
step is always the scariest; it’s the part that I really hate. I know how I
struggle at everything when I’m starting so I often wish I could just skip that
part. But unfortunately I can’t so I have to deal with it.
And because I don’t know a lot about something I am bound to
mess up. I don’t like messing up especially when my life is at stake or when
people are counting on me. It’s something that bothers me to no end. Now I know
why comfort zones are named as such.
Yes, in short, I don’t like leaving my comfort zone.
But you know what, no matter how much I whine about this to
myself I would still wake up the next morning and try it anyway. It’s something
I know I would do. I know there would be a little voice inside me saying “If
your heart beats like that, then it is an adventure.”
Adventures. I like adventures. Then I would smile again and
all those fears would subside and hide beneath my subconscious. It’s a new
morning again. Those musings I had done the night before are now all in the past.
So in the end no matter how I much I tell myself that I’m
scared, I would still reject it all and just go on with it. That is one
annoying part of me but also the part of me that keeps me going. I would not be
able to be in half of the places I’ve been. Hey, they aren’t that many
but for someone who dislikes new places and travelling that’s already a big
achievement.
So I know today’s rant is incoherent again and I’m just
pouring out ideas that I obviously didn’t proofread... and I know that it may
be insignificant to your life but this is quite important to me. I may have to
read this again in the near future just to remind me how troublesome everything
was for me in the beginning. I might read this after a year and just laugh at
myself for being this worried... but that’s me and this is my blog... so...
deal with it XP
In a few hours 2011 will finally
end but I will never forget all the things this year had brought me.
I met a lot of interesting people, some of
them even left a deep impression on me which I would never forget. I admit that
I don’t agree to some of them and I know that I won’t see some of the people I
met but I enjoyed meeting them, knowing them and being with them. I wish I
could know them better next year.
I also learned so many things
this year, which can help me continue on with my life. I had my share of bad
experiences and good ones. I had a lot of major and minor problems this year.
Some of those problems made me rethink my life again and again. There are times
where I just don’t know where I had gone wrong but since I’m still alive and
happy I know it all ended well. So now, I can look back and laugh at those
stupid times and harvest the things I learned from that. I cried, I laughed but
most of all I learned.
I do not regret anything I did
this year for it had let me to these experiences and if I didn’t make at least
one of those decisions then my whole 2011 might have been entirely different.
So, thank you 2011! I hope you exceed my expectations 2012!
My laptop got stolen a few days ago among with other things inside our apartment. I won't re-tell that story because I felt that I told it to my friends so many times already...
Anyway, because of that I am now very bored. All my files are gone and all the unifinished video and audio projects will have to be postponed until I get my hands on another laptop or PC I can work those with. I plan to use my PC at home but I won't be coming home until December. So all my plans would have to wait...
So I'm bored and this was done out of boredom: (I also think it's about time to post something new here)
Hey,
I did it. I managed to experience the same thing you felt. I finally managed to
step into the world you belonged to when I met you back then. I finally managed
to be the one at the center of the stage, the one that people watched. I
finally achieved something I only dreamt of doing. The same thing I saw you
doing. Although I’m sure it wasn’t the same thing. I’m sure that if it was you
then you won’t be blinded by the bright lights. I’m sure that if it was you
then you won’t shake like I did. I’m sure you would be calm. I’m sure that you
won’t be amazed by your own shadow or your own reflection. I’m sure you would
be more focused. I’m sure you would know what you are doing when you are doing
it.
Yes,
of course, it would be different.
But
you know what… I’m happy it was different. I have my experiences and you have
yours. I don’t know anything about your experiences and because of that I can
be proud of mine. I don’t know everything you felt and in that case I can
treasure all the things I felt.
It
was exhilarating. Until now, when weeks had passed, I can still remember it
like it happened just a moment ago. I danced, I sang and I acted. I wasn’t
afraid and I had so much fun. I didn’t care what people would think of me. I
didn’t care about the problems I was experiencing that time. I casted off
everything that I normally am and became a totally different person. I didn’t even care to listen to the audience’s
clap or cheering the whole time. During that time, I didn’t perform to please
everyone else.
I
did it for me.
Back
then, I just wanted to do my best… and I think I did. I think that was my best.
Maybe in some other time, when I would be fortunate enough to be given a second
chance, then I would perform even better than my best.
So will
I stop? Of course not. I have felt how fun it is and how hard it is, so if God
will give me another shot at it then I will go for it!
However,
I will not forget that you had been an inspiration for me. The desire to be a
part of that world even burned greater because of you. I will never forget that
day when I watched you on stage and cried on the way home. For that single
instance, I thank you. You may not know me but I’m forever thankful.
