Christmas 2010

December 26… yup it’s time for a Christmas blog post! I think it’s required or something. Moving on…

As I grow older I feel that my material gifts keeps on decreasing. This Christmas I received only one gift from my friend but aside from that I have no other gifts from my friends. I also received money from my parents but I haven’t used it to buy anything yet and due to circumstances I can’t really use it to buy the thing I want to buy. I also received gifts from work and I’m so thankful that they added me to their list even if I’m still new. *tears of joy* Plus my mother finally bought me a hula-hoop. (\^o^/)

But it wasn’t like this when I was younger. Let’s say 10 years ago I eagerly woke up every December 25 so that I could use my new purse/bag and go around the neighbourhood. My ninang/ninong just lived nearby back then so I can easily pester them every Christmas. I used to come with my brother as well so even my brother’s godparents give me gifts too. I always get a lot every Christmas… toys, money, and school stuff. I always enjoyed receiving stationary and writing materials for some reason even more than toys. The point is I never ran out of gifts and I remember my hands would get tired from tearing those Christmas wrappers.

But now everything is different.

I think people are getting poorer or maybe I’m just getting older or maybe I am getting more contented.

I suddenly stopped wishing from anything from anyone. “It’s better to give than to receive”. I started believing in that quote quite strongly than ever before. Sometimes even if they don’t give me any material things just a simple “Merry Christmas” out of their busy schedule would suffice. I know that they can’t give anything else so I am grateful to have received something from them at all. Yup, I guess I got older. Only old people would think of things like this.

But seriously there was only one gift that I was waiting for this Christmas… sadly I didn’t get it. Oh well.

Moving on… even if I didn’t get more presents and that certain gift I guess I was happy this Christmas. There is no such thing as the perfect way to spend Christmas… how you spend your Christmas Eve is surely your best way of celebrating Christmas. My brother and I watched One Piece episodes and Invader Zim (Hooray for Zim Marathon!) on Christmas Eve while eating our humble feast. That was very enjoyable and I think it’s the best way we could spend our Christmas.

So there is my Christmas post… there’s something else I would be posting but I’m too lazy to post that for now…

Anyway

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Going home alone

I am used to it so I don’t really care. There are times though that I enjoy going home more than when I am with someone. I can walk at my own pace. I can listen to music and ignore everything around me. I can even have a mental conversation with myself… although the last one was not recommended.

Since I am alone I can take my time in enjoying stuff like this. I am often distracted too but I just don't wander off when I'm with someone. I don't want the person I am with to feel burdened because of my habits.

But I would love to walk home with someone, I want to have someone to talk with. It’s not healthy to talk to myself so at least I want someone to talk to or share things with. It gets lonely especially when I'm walking or when something would remind me of my friends or when I see other people with friends or special someones.

Also, eating isn't the same when I don't have anyone to talk to or share the food with. It's not really lonely but somehow it's not fun. I sometimes think of fun or interesting stuff while eating... but since I'm alone I can't laugh about it. That really sucks.

But seriously, I don't care about it anymore... I laugh and have a conversation with myself. Just mentally, of course, since I don't want anyone to think I'm crazy. I like to think that I'm having a date with myself. The thought seemed to be working for me. I don't feel a little bit lonely.

Some things...

Looking back…

Sometimes after accomplishing something a person will look back at the days of anxiety and endless nights of caffeine just to laugh at the experience. It feels good. However, in my case even if I’m in the middle of those days I already look forward to that certain day of recollection. “Someday, I’ll look back on this day and laugh about it.” That’s one of the ways on how I motivate myself. I always look forward to that tomorrow where everything should be ok.

Anyway, I finished it. The SP I worked on for many months… I’ve finished it. I never thought that it would be near perfect but it somehow exceeded my expectations. There were many wrong moves and mistakes in the past but I don’t like regretting them. I think of them as very important factors that brought me to where I am now.

I am looking back at those days and nights.

I am laughing. I do feel good.

Being in LB

I always like being in LB. That place gives me some sense of freedom. Ewan. Even though half of me feel embarrassed staying in other people’s houses, the other half can sleep soundly without even thinking about such embarrassment. I like being with friends and that’s for sure. They never let me feel loneliness. I am so grateful for having friends like those.

I like LB. But I know that Elbi now is not my home anymore. My time had passed. I know LB had always welcomed me but those welcoming smiles would decrease every year and someday there won’t be a familiar smile anymore. I’ll become just another stranger in a place I once called my home.

There are still left though but even with all that I still felt like it’s not my home anymore. I know exactly what or rather who is missing.

The main reason why I feel contented in LB just wasn’t there anymore. This made a lot of difference. This made the whole place unfamiliar to me.

Although I know it’s already too much to ask but I wanted him to be with me as well. If we could walk the same street, road or grass we used to walk on then maybe I could feel like I’m 2 or 4 years back in time again. Maybe I could also recall what it felt like to be home in LB again.

SOMA cum laude 2010 video

I'm always proud of my videos... I treat them like my babies or something... I just love making videos and will find any excuse to make one.

If I add all the time I spent in making this video it would take one day. This one is very special because the video clips were really behaved while I was making it. The clips were cooperating with me and so was my laptop. In the end I can't help but watch it again and again and again...



This one I made to promote SOMA's activity (note: any form of excuse) I wasn't required to make a video but I volunteered myself just for the pleasure of making a video.

Trivia about this video:
1. Even though R2 was also covered by the quiz contest. I had no idea that it was included so there are no r2 clips found here.
2. I actually used the trailer for code geass episode 24-25 on the video. I just placed it there and the timing and emotion I was aiming for was there. I was too amazed to even think it was accidental.
3. The code geass clips doesn't have subtitles... since I used the English dub version. The only voice I like in the English dub of Code Geass was Cornelia... No one would ever be able to defeat Jun Fukuyama as Lelouch.
4. I got lazy on that part where the videos were zooming out. Even my brother knew I could've at least cleaned that part...
5. I edited O Fortuna since it was so long and because the volume levels of the silent part and the loud parts were so significantly different that it is annoying.


as you can see I enjoyed myself. Whatever the outcome of this video I was happy.

I want to draw!!

I was scanning around fanarts when I suddenly realized that I want to draw again. I know it's easy to draw but I can't even submit my drawings to DA or something... I can scan my drawings but they're not "clean" enough for me. Even after scanning it I want to erase some traces of paper... color over the other parts... you know photoshop things. My real problem is that I just can't do it properly on a mouse. I want a tablet so bad... T_T after I get done with this SP I swear I'll demand a tablet from my parents and draw until my creative juices run dry!

Anyway just recently I lost my voice and surely I got my voice back again. I always think that every time I lose my voice the moment it comes back it would be better and more beautiful... you know... like when you're body building... you strain your muscles to get better muscles. I just think it works like that.

Well I lost my voice because of this song



Note to self again: DON'T EVER TRY TO SING LIKE Nodoame. Seriously I can pull off this song without hurting my throat but somehow Nodoame's version influenced me a lot and thus the lost of voice.

and the moment my voice started to come back (like after a week or so...) I started recording this song and finally uploaded it on youtube.



as far as my SP is concerned... well... don't want to talk about it.

One Piece: One day

So this is the new Opening song for One Piece. It's okay I guess... better than the Impel Down - Kaze wo Sagashite combination last time. It's just that it's a bit sad for a war arc. The animation was good and each major player in the arc had well-deserved screen time each showing off their powers. No big spoilers though *ehem*Sabo*ehem*Ace'smagmahole* so I'm quite sure that it's a good opening song for the anime-viewers only.

Watching Eclipse

My sister and I watched Twilight saga: Eclipse this Saturday with Jam. I never thought Jam would come all the way to SM Fairview to watch it with me. Jam's place was very far from SM Fairview. I was glad she could watch it with me. I've watched the first two movies with her... it sort of become a tradition of ours. ^______________^

Anyway the movie was great. I've read the book and of course I noticed some differences from the original material but it was alright. I mean... I was expecting it to be different at some point because the theater of my mind is totally different from the big screen.

I had so much fun fangirling with them. Eclipse was really cool. Carlisle, Jasper and Alice, Jacob (lalo na mga hirit niya), jealous Edward... It's really better than Twilight and New moon combined. Eclipse is my favorite book among the four and now I think it's my favorite movie among the Twilight saga.