Trying to art

The month just started but I'm feeling productive already.

I'm still writing Heartbeats and despite all the blocks I've been going through I still managed to update. Sadly there's like a month gap between the recent chapters and it's disappointing compared to my weekly schedule last year.

I also made a oneshot fanfic this month...which is a great thing for me since I really planned to go on fanfic hiatus due to lack of inspiration.

But most of all, I can not believe how active I was in drawing. I'm still learning and my hands are still stiff as ever... but I'm getting there... :)

So... just for the month of March. I finished these:


Heartbeats: The twins by pyroclastic-debris on DeviantArt


My lovely OCs from Heartbeats. Thinking that they are definitely younger in this one... and happier? I get all sad whenever I think about them in my story so drawing them like this makes me happy.





ZOLE_Joy by pyroclastic-debris on DeviantArt


Also Joy! Second character in the ZOLE re-draw project! I really enjoyed the colors on this one... but HOW DO YOU HAND? HOW DO YOU FEET?!

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Like I said... I'm getting there. Hopefully I'll be more productive in my birthmonth

Write More! Write Now! Module 1

Recently enrolled myself to this course for writing, in the hopes of enhancing my writing abilities and to just give myself a small push to write more.


For the first module  I have to think of why I write and my 'one thing' I have to focus on. I know I should write my answer on paper and put it somewhere I could see it but I want to also share it here... lalang.

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Module 1: Think big; think small

I write because there are so many stories inside my head that are just waiting to be told. There are many characters and tales so dear to me, that the only way to show my love for them is to tell their stories. I write because I want to express myself, I want to show other people how it is to live in my head. I want to share my thoughts and feelings and imagination, and in the end take the reader inside a new adventure in the hopes that he or she would like it the same way I do.


What’s the one thing I can do this month that will make everything else easier or unnecessary. Choose one most important writing task to focus on for right now:

I believe that would still be writing Heartbeats.

This month, I really need to fix my writing schedule in order to make things easier. I tried changing the deadline of each chapter to Sunday but that's no good, so I guess I can bring it back to Thursday, which still feels like the best day for me. But before this answer gets longer, the point is I have to get around writing that story.

Sometimes I smile

Every morning whenever I fight my way through the battlefield that is rush hour EDSA I try my best to smile. I smile to annoy people, to entertain people, and to make fun of the whole ridiculous shitty system.

There are mornings though that I don't smile just to smile. There are mornings that are truly beautiful that I just can't control myself from pulling my lips to a smile. I had long forgotten how to be a morning lark, but now it's coming back to me.

But sometimes I try to imagine what it would feel like to see a single smiling face in a pool of stressed scowls. Dare I hope that I make someone's day just by actually trying to be pleasant in the morning.

Short review of "Memoirs of an Imaginary friend"

I’m not really good a reviews but I just need to post something about this book. 

Just finished listening to this precious precious audiobook. The premise was interesting and the execution was superb. I won’t post any more details so as not to spoil anyone who will read this, but it’s about a special boy and his imaginary friend, narrated from the perspective of the imaginary friend. 

I listened to this because a good friend of mine recommended it. She was amazing and the book is perfect for someone like me. 

This book made me cry and smile and made me feel how lucky I was to have imaginary friends. Most of all, it made me feel that it was not wrong to have imaginary friends.

I too have imaginary friends, and I love every single one of them. I do not want them to ever fade away. Listening to this made me realize how wonderful they really are and how I love them so much. Although I don’t talk about them to real people they are still there. Without them, I won't be the person I am today.

I recommend this to everyone who had imaginary friends or to someone who is curious as to what having an imaginary friends feels like. 

I recommend this to everyone who needs a friend and to everyone who wants to feel the warmth and love of real friends, even if that friend is imaginary.

I am trash

I am trash.
Of course I knew that before, but I had to be reminded of it every single night.
I don't even feel anything anymore when I'm reminded of it.
I just accept it as it is.
I even joke about it from time to time.

I am trash.
No fancy words. No tears to cry. No pain in my chest.
I just know. I am trash.

Watching real people series and stuff

Warning: Fangirling. Don't read if you don't want to read me ramble.


So recently, I've finished watching Parks and Rec. The whole marathon was so worth it; all 7 seasons of seeing characters develop wonderfully, of watching a strong story unfolding and a closing with a good clean ending. The other sitcom that I'm still watching up until now is TBBT, and compared to that the subtle comedy (I say subtle because of the lack of laughs?idk) and unique characters are a breath of fresh air.

Currently, I'm still having withdrawal symptoms and I bet I'd watch everything again. It's short and it's fun. I could watch this until 6 in the morning... and you bet I already did that!



Anyway, my favorite character in that series must be Andy, played by Chris Pratt. He started off as this big annoying baby with two broken legs, but he's actually sweet... and really really dumb. Then I started seeing him like a big adorably puppy that just loves everything because everything is awesome. (YES! I did that!)

But good lord, did I fall in love with him when he was with April. Honestly, I envied their relationship and how they just love each other through thick and thin, in success and in weirdness. Making Pratt a regular in the series was already, for me, the best decision the people behind the series could ever make... but pairing Andy and April topped even that!

I don't even know how to begin in describing how I love their pairing. Even if they were just hugging at the background is enough to make my heart flutter... so how do I even start to explain what emotions it asks of me whenever I see them role-playing or making out. There is a mixture of pure envy and pure happiness. Of course, I'm still rooting for them. They're my OTP. And I love their reactions and interactions with each other that I could not even imagine the character could exist without the other.

On a side note, *sigh* I want to cling on to someone like Andy as well.

So now, I am obsessed with Chris Pratt. I even watched Jurassic World, Lego Movie, Guardians and Jurassic World ,again, this weekend. Yes. In that order. Contemplating on watching his older movies as well if I could only have the extra time... but for now this will do.

My preference has been distorted in a new way again, having to add this new obsession. Apparently, I am attracted to facial hair. I've seen Andy without facial hair in the series and he looked odd... he's far more attractive when he has facial hair. Oh god. I can't believe I just heard myself say that. D:


Moving forward, since I just finished this series, people continued to recommend more stuff to me. Sitcoms and series they believed I would like. It's not that I appreciate it all but... ugh... my list! Just when I thought that I cleared a chunk of it, considering that the last season just finished and most of the anime I'm watching are done; here we are again with a brand new list. This time with more real people series!

Honestly, I could only watch a handful of real people series. As much as I love them and their stories are cool, I just could not keep up with all that. And also, there's the factor that real people bore me. So for now I'll just continue to take note of their recommendations and sweep them all under the rug until I find time to pick up at least one episode of it.

But hey, I don't mind being this obsessed again just as long as he will suddenly turn out to become Star Lord by the end of the series XD

Heartbeats

So I've been writing originals again and I finally get to upload the first chapter of Heartbeats! Yay.

It's a story based from a dream I had around 4 years ago. Back then the dream was fairly simple and straight to the point... like 3 pages or something...  but somehow I've developed the characters and the setting even more and that short dream turned into a long story.

I already have the whole thing floating in my head so I just have to write and refine it. It's nice to write about characters of my own, since I've been writing and thinking about fanfics for quite a while now.

So there... hopefully I improved from the last original story I posted on wattpad and hopefully I can stick to my "I upload every Thursday" rule. 

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Sasha has a strong heart, a single heart that gives off a wonderful beating sound. However, her heart beats not for her but for the people she cares about.
    
    Her heart beats for the guy she likes; a guy who can stand being around her and will readily give a smile to her when she herself can not. 
    
    Her heart beats for the man she admires; the man she believes in with every inch of her existence. She would go to hell and back for him with just a single word.
    
    But most important of all, her heart beats for her brother. The brother she was born to care for. She will do anything to protect him and to make sure that he will be a stronger person. 
    
    The world may be a very dangerous place, but Sasha is determined to do everything just to keep those hearts beating… 
    
    ...even if means stealing other people’s heartbeats or even if it means giving up her own.

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