Baguio 2018!

I went to Baguio again. This is like my 2nd time to go to Baguio this year alone. LOL. Two of my officemates are celebrating their birthday on this trip so I have been craving for Vizco's cake ever since we planned this trip. 


The accommodation was from Airbnb and we hired a van to go there and tour us around. Everything was prepared by someone else and I don't really plan to put the details here. Anyway, our itinerary is mostly DIY, but this is Baguio so everything is just there already. 



So like I said I've been to Baguio earlier this year so to make my trip a little more exciting, I’ve decided to do a vlog or something. 


Thus, here’s my 3-part video of the 2 day trip.


Part 1


 Arrival and first half of day 1




Part 2
 After sleeping and the darker half of the day





Part 3
 Day 2 and going home

Osomatsu fangirling at Mandarake

First night in Japan and basically what the whole trip was like most of the time

"What's the difference?"
That's basically begging me to explain all about Osomatsu

Boracay Weekend 2016

Back with a vengeance! Hahaha not really. 

So my officemates dragged me to Boracay and with the lure of calamansi muffin I agreed. It was not a wise decision considering I'm saving for my trip this October. In the end, I did not regret the decision. 

The first time I went to Boracay I had little budget and the weather was rainy. It was quite an experience and I still remember how much the raindrops hurt when it hits your face on a speeding boat. 

I guess it's quite appropriate to say that I was back with a vengeance and my goal is to enjoy this trip as much as I can. 

I did! 

The weather was amazing considering that the past few days were rainy. Just look at that white sand against blue. AMAZING!

Beach please. #BoraWeekend2016

A photo posted by Edz (@erysd) on Jul 18, 2016 at 3:45pm PDT

Parasailing. Underwater helmet diving. Banana boat. ATV. YES I TRIED THEM ALL!

Lol the fishes looked photoshopped, but I swear they're real. Since this is my second time helmet diving I was not that scared anymore. ^o^/ 

Parasailing though... this was a different story. I know I wanted to do this and agreed to it, even paid for it! But all the time I was very very scared. I asked myself: when was the last time I said 'yes' to something that scares the living hell inside me?

"Are you scared?"

"Terrified."

"Good. Let's do this."

HOLY. FUCKING. SHIT.

Look at that fear in my grip. Was it worth it? YES. Would I do it again? YEAH. Will I be scared if I do it again? FUCK YES.

I know I've been snorkeling many times already but this must be the first time I actually enjoyed the activity. Why? Contact lenses yo! This was the year I decided that I'll wear contacts when I swim in the ocean. So far I had no incident. 

I love all the activities but there was something about the ATV that made me really happy that I signed up for it. ROUGH ROAD RIDING YEAH!

Let's rock and roll (thankfully I didn't literally roll) Rough road mode. #BoraWeekend2016

A photo posted by Edz (@erysd) on Jul 19, 2016 at 2:31am PDT

Of course we still manage to chill and enjoy the island at day and at night: Fire dancing, Gmax (I only watched people get flung. I'm not that brave. ) and the sights and sounds of the island. 

Finally, here's a video of the whole thing compiled and edited by the awesome sir DJ. Thanks man!

Cosmania 2012

So rainy... I hate rain

I went to Cosmania.

Ok you can stop reading now since that is the only thing that this entry is about. But having no readers won’t stop me from writing this blog anyway. And who knows you might be one of the random cosplayers I took a photo of with my crappy cellphone camera.

Anyway, from what I’ve been around the internet when one blogs about Cosmania 2012, they will sure blog about Kaname or the other foreign friends they met at the event, unlucky for you, this entry isn’t that kind of blog.

 

I didn’t meet them. I didn’t even plan on meeting them, and I guess you can say that everything went according to my non-plan. 

You see, Cosmania had 3 kinds of tickets to offer: the “maykaya” ticket, the “mayaman-ako” ticket, and the “oh-I-have-money” ticket. The first ticket will get you have access to the booths, the second one will give you access to booth+stage/main events, while the most expensive one will let you meet and greet the foreign friends.

So knowing me, I bought the first ticket. I was hesitating at first since I really want to see the bands play and the cosplay catwalk and the main stage but I just have to admit I’m not that wealthy. So we have a one-room-only access where we have access to the merch booths and the side-stage sponsored by TV5.

Actually, it was really ok even if we just bought that ticket. The merch booths always kept me entertained in a convention since I love looking around and buying some things. I also got the wig I bought online, which is one of my goals for that day. Even if I didn’t see the catwalk, I already had my fill of cosplayers. I don’t really know if this has become a standard for every convention, but if you want to take pictures of cosplayers you would rather stay outside. Most of them are outside.   

Anyway, my companion for that convention enjoyed it. If it wasn’t for him not seeing the bands perform would make me sad.

the only thing he ate in the event

Because we didn’t stayed and watch the stage we manage to leave early. We had sushi for dinner and we went home. Even if we went home early we got very tired.

My Moral lesson: I can enjoy going to a convention even without watching the stage… oh wait… scratch that… I can enjoy anything as long as I’m with him. ^_^

Oh before I forget! The cosplayer pic strip:

My ex(-roommate)'s birthday

I wasn't supposed to blog about this but in the end I did. It was because of this post I made almost 2 years (give and take a few months) ago. 

But before we get to that what happened? Well it was my ex's roommate's birthday and we celebrated by playing and singing at Timezone. It was very very fun. 

They have this unlimited VIP card of some sort and you get to play for one hour with it. I didn't went on the details of it since I was too lazy to care about it... but what's important was: take this card Ren-chan and go crazy with it. So I did. Since I didn't bother about the details on how to use that card I just swiped it on everything I see ... if it works, "yay'... if it didn't "boo"... see how easy  my sleepy mind works? Ah yes... I was up the whole night before that and only had 3-4 hours of sleep in the morning before we met up in Trinoma in the afternoon. My eyes actually hurt at the end of the day. Anyway, I played some racing games and shooting games... and I got to fight PK and defeated her with powerful but pure button-mashing-out-of-ignorance technique.

After that was karaoke and even with 3-4 hours of sleepy I sang, dance and go crazy.  I really enjoy singing and enjoy it even more when I'm with these people. They're crazy... I'm a bit crazy... and we all don't care if we are. That's very good formula for having fun. 

It was weird though because something happened to us and it was my first time experiencing such a thing. My friend and I were about to go out and buy something to drink when someone suddenly went to the door behind me. I looked behind and there was this guy blocking the door of our karaoke booth. He wanted to join us...well he and his friends wanted to join us. I am unsure what to do so I decided to wait for him to go away and observe from outside... all the while glaring at his companions. What he did was rude and I have every right to show them that I didn't like what he did.

So as expected my friends didn't agree to what this guy wants... who would? I am not sure if I'm the only one who thinks like this... but I really thought it was already understood that you should know the people whom you are with inside the karaoke booth. Anyway, my friend said that as much as possible we would like to keep the booth for ourselves since we're celebrating someone's birthday but he said they too have a birthday celebrator. But that doesn't give them any right to just join in...right? So my friend said to talk to the our celebrator and checks if she agrees. 

Now, there are already 7 of us inside the room and the maximum is 5. In total we are 8 but there's one roaming outside since she doesn't want to sing. We are already violating that rule but no one really reprimanded us so I guess it can be tolerated. But one of us have to sacrifice and stand up the whole time. I have no idea how many that guy's group is but... seriously... the room isn't big enough for all of us.. literally.

So he went away with us promising him that when we are done we'll give the room to his group. Bitch, please. We came prepared. Even if we run out of tokens there's 7 of us who are willing to sing and shell out money to continue. We can stay there and sing until closing time. Sucks for him. 

So I went inside and decided not to drink first. My parched throat can still manage to sing just so we could prove that we are not going away any time soon.. Although I asked our roaming friend to buy us drinks... XD that's the second rule we broke... we snuck inside drinks. 

However, that wasn't the end of it... he came back D: He just went inside again, like it was no big deal, and grabbed one of my friends's shoulder/back. Since he was surprised, he finally snapped and shouted. The guy was stunned... and FINALLY all is well... and we sang happily ever after until we ran out of money and got hungry. It was nearly closing time then. ;)

We ate at Pizza Hut and that's when I decided to make the blog entry. I suddenly realized, after finishing the meal, that I was sitting at that same spot I was sitting when I made this blog post the pizza in the picture was from the same place. Ok maybe not the exact same spot since I know I was facing the mirror back then... but now I'm not but it's the same place where the table was. 

My plate this time

I love teasing these sisters...
that's my way of showing how much I love them :P

The celebrator is the one on the left... your left

ah... debating again. =_=

PK's awesome face XD

In comparison with the older blog post this time I wasn't alone. I was with friends. Both are nice experiences but the feeling are very different from each other. The happiness I felt from solitude and having my own pace is different from the fun I can experience with friends. Neither is greater than the other but both are memorable. I know I've been throwing this word out too often... but it was really fun. Having someone to actually talk to, to joke to, to laugh with and to get pissed off with... is just priceless. 

The delayed gift: The Novo adventure

So today my brother and I went to Novo. It is one tricycle, one bus ride and one LRT ride away from our house. It's not that near but I have been to further places so I can't really call it "far" from my point of view. 

The reason why my brother and I went there was that we needed to give a birthday gift to our youngest sister. Her birthday was on the 8th but because of the rains and floods the trip got delayed for a few days. 

So why Novo? Because we wanted to get a wig for her. Now I only know 2 places to look for cheap wigs: Cubao and Novo in Laguna. Laguna is out of the question since it's shitfar. If we go to Cubao I have to blindly find the store first since I don't know the exact store. I knew there was a Novo branch nearby so that's our only option. 

By the way, to anyone reading this that's in the Philippines and knows a place where I could get cheap wigs within/near Quezon City please tell me... ;A; I beg of you... 

Anyway... 

This was interesting for me because both of us don't know where that department store is. Thanks to google I learned beforehand where to go and what it looks like in the front. But that's all I know. Now, my brother and I are raised to stay inside the house. I don't like going out and don't really go to places until college. So we're not really street smart... at all... we're learning but we have a long way to get there. 

However, both of us love adventure and this drove us to go. I don't like riding on planes but I love the sense of adventure. That exciting feeling of going somewhere and seeing something new is very lovely for me. Like Luffy said, "if you can feel your heart pumping then it is an adventure." And pump goes my heart! Because of this feeling and the encouragement from a certain pirate king candidate I decided to continue this. 

My mother and my little sister wanted to go too but I didn't want to... but I'll get to that later on.

So after running for the bus, walking around the station and figuring out where to go and walking down the street while hoping it's the right direction... we made it.

I knew it was cheap there... but man! I was only looking for wigs but I was tempted to buy a lot of other things too. Sadly, the selection of wigs are pretty limited and the ones I was looking for aren't there. After a long discussion, asking a saleslady to comb a wig we didn't buy, and being busted for looking at their secret stockpile of wigs... we bought a wig with the right length but with a slightly different color. I know she'll be happy with it anyway and I know how to fix the color issue anyway. 

So before that we looked around the place for a while since both of us were hoping that there are other wigs somewhere else in that place... Novo had 3 floors and we were pretty positive. While walking and noticing how cheap the stuff is we started to joke around. If my mother was there with us... we will stay there longer,  and we would have new clothes and other things we don't really need. And if my little sister would see the cheap school supplies on the second floor I bet she would suddenly have all this requirements for school that weren't required before. Those two are suckers for these things. I am not really a fan of buying just because they were cheap but the temptation of buying stuff was really strong. I even took a random metal scrub and I told my brother, "hey you want to buy this?" "why?" he'd reply, and I would say "I dunno it's cheap... and I think we need this". Of course we were joking. Why on earth would I buy a metal scrub for our house.. we have ton of those already. Even until we were standing  in line I saw a glimpse or urinals and asked that joke again. 

It was a fun trip. I really enjoyed trips with my siblings... mainly because I can easily throw jokes at them and they usually understand my humor. I can't even begin to imagine what my boyfriend will say to me if I use the same joke... or my roommates ... 

Anyway, so here is the "loot":

Ugly camera is ugly... deal with it... anyway... here's what included there:

• 2 wigs one brownish/goldish yellow and one black (for my mother since she wanted one too)
• 2 tiny hat thing with ribbons and feather one black and one yellow... for me and my sister.
• 1 wig cap so she won't use mine anymore.
• 1 comb since I broke the handle of the old one
• 1 Mirror
• Green chains (not included in the picture) since it's cheap and we might need it
• some mascara and gold eyeliner for my sister

So after having a snack in KFC, being trolled by the rain, and waiting for a bus that would take us home... we finally got home....

...and my sister pretty much enjoyed what she got. My mother also had fun trying the black long haired wig. 

It was tiring but fun and I get to have new stuff as well... in the end it was all good.

Feb Fair 2012

Pumunta ako ng LB para ayusin ang clearance ko. Ang tagal na rin simula nang magtapos ako pero hindi ko pa rin makuha ang diploma ko dahil hindi pa ako cleared. Kaya dahil naisip ko na panahon na para makuha ang diploma ko ginawan ko na ng paraan para ma-clear na ako.

Siyempre, nakatiming na feb fair ako pupunta para masaya. Maganda ang fair sa UPLB, may perya, may banda, maraming pagkain at kung anu-ano na pwedeng mabili. Pero hindi yan ang gusto ko puntahan sa  fair. Tuwing feb fair may tinatawag na “cosplay day” ang org ko, ang UP SOMA Soshiki, kung san nagcocosplay ang mga miyembro at paparada palibot ng fair. Simpleng tradisyon na napakasaya. Ang tagal na rin nang huli akong tumuntong sa LB nang nakacosplay. Matagal na rin na hindi ako nagcocosplay.

Siyempre may listahan ako. Ayoko naman na isa lang gagawin ko samantalang minsan-minsan lang ako makabalik ng eLBi. Kaya eto ang mga kelangan ko gawin:

1. Ayusin ang clearance at iba pang papeles
2. Magcosplay ng Conchita
3. Makabonding ang mga kaibigan ko
4. Makilala ang mga bagong miyembro ng SOMA

Natutuwa akong sabihin na nagawa ko naman ang lahat ng yan.

Feb Fair/Cosplay day

Noong nakaraan na taon lang nagkaroon ng perya sa UPLB feb fair. Ang daya di ba? Samantalang ang napala lang naming dati ay brownout. Pero ok lang, hindi man ako nakapunta nung nakaraang taon ngayon ay nakabawi na ako.

Sa totoo lang takot ako sa mga rides. Sa EK nga hindi ako makasakay sa mga rides dun dahil sa takot. Ayoko nang hinahagis-hagis ako, ayoko nang nahuhulog at higit sa lahat ayoko ng nahihilo. Kaya alam ko na hindi ako magandang kasama pag pupunta ng Star City o Enchanted Kingdom. Masaya naman ako sa pagiging KJ, kesa naman mamatay di ba? Kung natatakot ako sa EK pano pa kaya sa perya rides? Dinig na dinig ko yung bakal na parang may pumipitiik sa bawat ikot nung ride. Parang masisira na lang yun bigla. Pinakakinakatakot ko ay baka biglang ma-Final Destination pa kami.

Kaya eto kami at ng mga kaibigan ko habang nag-iisip kung san pupunta

Oo nga pala, nakita ko rin ang mga batang miyembro ng SOMA. Ang cute nila sa mga cosplay nila at naaaliw lang talaga ako. Sa org house rin ako nakitulog ng gabing iyon. Buti na lang may mapupuntahan pa rin ako kahit na matagal na akong wala sa LB. :3

Magcocosplay sana ako kaso maulan at maputik sa Freedom Park. Kaya ayun hindi na lang. Sayang talaga.  

Bonding...


Kinabukasan, kanya-kanya naming ginawa ang mga kelangan naming gawin. May pumasok sa klase, may mga naglakad ng papel at iba pa. Kumain rin kami ngayon dun sa restaurant na gusto ko talagang kainan. Nakalimutan ko yung pangalan (Auntie Pearl’s )pero grabe ang sarap ng pagkain dun.

Nagphotoshoot kami pagdating ng hapon. Maulan pa rin kaya sa loob lang kami kumuha ng larawan. Hindi na talaga kami gusto paglakarin sa feb fair ng ulan na ito. Nananadya na nga ata eh.

Pagkatapos nun ay karaoke. Masaya magkaraoke kasama ang mga kaibigan. Kahit na hindi ganun kaganda ang pagkanta masaya pa rin. Nakakalimutan ko sandali lahat ng mga iniisip ko. Nakakatanggal talaga ng stress ang pagkakaroke para sa kin.

Eto ang ilan sa aming mga pagwawala: Video 1: James | Video 2: Kana and James duet | Jibun wooo

Hay...

alam ko... talagang nakakapagod...

Natapos ko naman agad ang buong proseso ng pagcclear at pagkuha ng diploma. May natutunan pa nga ako na bagong kanta. Ang buong akala ko kasi “UP Naming Mahal” lang ang kelangan kong kantahin. Handa naman akong kantahin ang kanta nay un at matagal ko nang saulado iyon. Nagulat lang talaga ako na may ISA PANG kanta na DAPAT kantahin. “Sulong CAS”. Hindi ko alam kung san galing, pano sumulpot, at sinong nakaisip na irequire siya. Hindi ko talaga alam ang kanta. Ngayon ko lang narinig ang kantang iyon... pero dahil gusto ko na matapos ang lahat at marami pa akong mas masasayang gagawin... sinaulo ko ang awitin na iyon. Sa loob ng isang oras. Malamang narindi na ang kasama ko sa kakanta ko nun pero kelangan ko maLSS sa kantang iyon para tumugtog siya ng tumugtog sa utak ko.

Nakanta ko naman. Kaya nakapagpatuloy ako sa aking paglalakad ng papel.

Matapos ko makuha ang clearance ko nalaman ko na makukuha ko na rin ang diploma ko sa oras rin na iyon. Astig. :D Kaya onting hintay lang at nakuha ko na rin ang diploma ko.

naghihintay lang ng diploma

sobrang bagot kung anu-ano na lang ang pinipicturan ko eh XD

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Masayang bumalik sa LB kahit na sobrang nagtaas ang pamasahe at marami na akong hindi kilala. Hindi na ito ang “LB ko”. Wala na ang mga teacher, instructor, classmate, tindera at mga lugar na alam ko. Napalitan na sila ng mga bagong mukha at bagong tindahan. Ang mga alal-ala na ginawa ko sa lugar na ito ay hindi na rin ganoon ka-linaw.

Ngunit kahit na ganoon, parang nanumbalik sa kin ang mga nagdaan na panahon nang bumalik ako nitong mga nakaraan na araw. Kasama ko kasi muli ang ilan sa mga tao na nagbigay kulay sa aking pananatili sa LB noon. Naglakad kami muli sa parehong kalsada na nilalakad namin noon papuntang klase. Parang normal na araw lang noong estudyante pa ako. Kaya kahit sandal parang walang pinagbago ang LB... parang naging “LB ko” uli ang lugar.

Ang saya... sana mangyari uli ito...

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eto pang ibang mga larawan na kinuha ko  ^_______________^

Ozine 2011 and other things

Yup I went to a convention called Ozine 2011 after a long time that I haven't been into any conventions before I've been so busy with work but thank goodness that I still have time to enjoy things like this.

I haven't written in this blog for the longest time because of the same reason. I only have internet at the office and I can't really write my blog while in there... right? I guess I can... but that would just be irresponsible.

Anyway here are pictures from Ozine 2011

To know the masked person that occasionally pops up in the pictures click here. Somehow even if he's my only companion attending this convention I was still happy. Uhh... I'm always happy when I'm with him. Hahaha. I should shut up now. ^_________^

Anyway, I'm also attending classes this summer... what kind of classes? I'll post it some day... hehehe...

I also bought a second-hand phone because my old phone is really starting to bug me. No one can call me properly on that phone and most of the time it shows me a white screen... how could I contact anyone with that? So there... new phone... and it's purple... and I'm very happy about it.

Well that's all for now. I want to blog about something else but I want to sleep now... so I guess next time will do.

This weekend...

This weekend I went to LB. I was supposed to go to Komikstrip but I didn't wake up early so I missed everything... yup... everything... I didn't even go inside.

Well somehow I was thankful for not going inside. I might "accidentally" buy things like manga or comics. I can't really spend so much right now since I have to buy a bag and I think there's something else I need to save my money for.

So I met up with friends and we decided to do something else. I also got a copy of our game. It looks awesome hahaha. I'm not being biased but considering how short the time we had to do it, it was pretty cool to actually make something like this. The stories they had told me about the people who tried our game were all funny. They didn't even realized that the character they were playing was a girl. Maybe putting 'What a beautiful day... and I'm a girl.' should be done in the beginning of the game. Just to make things clear before they can proceed. Hahaha. But of course I'm not serious about this. I think... XD

Anyway, I really wished I can go to Feb fair though... I somehow want to buy something like this...

 

It's cute. It's comfortable. It's warm on my head... and it's a wolf hat! I just wish that I would find where I can buy these things. I want a wolf on my head as well... without killing any animals.

So as usual... we sang. It was the usual karaoke place that we always go to if we want to sing Japanese songs. I really think this is becoming a habit of mine. I truly enjoy singing with my friends. Even if we can't read Japanese (well kanji to be exact), or we are not hitting the right notes we still keep on singing... it's just pure fun!

Going home alone

I am used to it so I don’t really care. There are times though that I enjoy going home more than when I am with someone. I can walk at my own pace. I can listen to music and ignore everything around me. I can even have a mental conversation with myself… although the last one was not recommended.

Since I am alone I can take my time in enjoying stuff like this. I am often distracted too but I just don't wander off when I'm with someone. I don't want the person I am with to feel burdened because of my habits.

But I would love to walk home with someone, I want to have someone to talk with. It’s not healthy to talk to myself so at least I want someone to talk to or share things with. It gets lonely especially when I'm walking or when something would remind me of my friends or when I see other people with friends or special someones.

Also, eating isn't the same when I don't have anyone to talk to or share the food with. It's not really lonely but somehow it's not fun. I sometimes think of fun or interesting stuff while eating... but since I'm alone I can't laugh about it. That really sucks.

But seriously, I don't care about it anymore... I laugh and have a conversation with myself. Just mentally, of course, since I don't want anyone to think I'm crazy. I like to think that I'm having a date with myself. The thought seemed to be working for me. I don't feel a little bit lonely.

Some things...

Looking back…

Sometimes after accomplishing something a person will look back at the days of anxiety and endless nights of caffeine just to laugh at the experience. It feels good. However, in my case even if I’m in the middle of those days I already look forward to that certain day of recollection. “Someday, I’ll look back on this day and laugh about it.” That’s one of the ways on how I motivate myself. I always look forward to that tomorrow where everything should be ok.

Anyway, I finished it. The SP I worked on for many months… I’ve finished it. I never thought that it would be near perfect but it somehow exceeded my expectations. There were many wrong moves and mistakes in the past but I don’t like regretting them. I think of them as very important factors that brought me to where I am now.

I am looking back at those days and nights.

I am laughing. I do feel good.

Being in LB

I always like being in LB. That place gives me some sense of freedom. Ewan. Even though half of me feel embarrassed staying in other people’s houses, the other half can sleep soundly without even thinking about such embarrassment. I like being with friends and that’s for sure. They never let me feel loneliness. I am so grateful for having friends like those.

I like LB. But I know that Elbi now is not my home anymore. My time had passed. I know LB had always welcomed me but those welcoming smiles would decrease every year and someday there won’t be a familiar smile anymore. I’ll become just another stranger in a place I once called my home.

There are still left though but even with all that I still felt like it’s not my home anymore. I know exactly what or rather who is missing.

The main reason why I feel contented in LB just wasn’t there anymore. This made a lot of difference. This made the whole place unfamiliar to me.

Although I know it’s already too much to ask but I wanted him to be with me as well. If we could walk the same street, road or grass we used to walk on then maybe I could feel like I’m 2 or 4 years back in time again. Maybe I could also recall what it felt like to be home in LB again.

Watching Eclipse

My sister and I watched Twilight saga: Eclipse this Saturday with Jam. I never thought Jam would come all the way to SM Fairview to watch it with me. Jam's place was very far from SM Fairview. I was glad she could watch it with me. I've watched the first two movies with her... it sort of become a tradition of ours. ^______________^

Anyway the movie was great. I've read the book and of course I noticed some differences from the original material but it was alright. I mean... I was expecting it to be different at some point because the theater of my mind is totally different from the big screen.

I had so much fun fangirling with them. Eclipse was really cool. Carlisle, Jasper and Alice, Jacob (lalo na mga hirit niya), jealous Edward... It's really better than Twilight and New moon combined. Eclipse is my favorite book among the four and now I think it's my favorite movie among the Twilight saga.

Toycon2010

Went to Toycon2010 yesterday. Although I was expecting it, the number of people still astounded me. I still enjoy going to conventions.

Somehow even if there are some people around me who were losing interest in things like these, I still managed to be the same. I don't know when this kind of fascination will fade.

Right... back to Toycon.

I am frustrated since somehow I don't feel like I completed my trip to Toycon this year. The number of pictures I've taken were too few. There were some cosplayers whom I wanted to take pictures with but I didn't have any chance. There were also so many toys and stuff I wanted to buy but somehow I don't have any money for it.

Yes like this fine figure here...

Oh well ever since ever I always knew that buying stuff isn't the reason why I go to Toycon. I enjoy just looking at the things that I know I would never have.

I bought myself a keychain though... just a simple reminder that this year's toycon wasn't a dream.

Next year... I hope that somehow next year I wouldn't have to keep myself from buying the things I want.

Well I plan to cosplay next year... but then again all these are just plans...

I'll have to wait what will happen until it actually happens.

Going out on Thursday

There was one time when I woke up early in the morning and everyone was just being noisy around the house... at that point I suddenly wished I was back at LB. That’s when I decided on this: if I ever graduate I would try to get a job that is far from home so that I could live somewhere else again. I love my family but if you’re with them most of the time I feel like I'm suffocating. I try my best to please everyone most of the times. They can’t understand the things I do and don’t do, the decisions I make and don’t make… since they’re my family I often just give up and let them be even if it annoys me. I don’t want that kind of life. Ever since college I had realized that my life isn’t about anyone else but me. I should be the one making the final decisions. I should be the one who will take the step.

I know my limits and the reality that I am still a student that’s why I don’t pretend that I can live without my parents unlike some other teenagers or people similar my age. I know very well that I cannot live on my own right now, that’s why I just let my mother do what she wants with my life but as soon as I can live on my own I would surely break away from here.

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Anyway, last Thursday (June 10) my friend and I went out since she wanted to go to church. I happily went with her. I missed her and I would rather go out and hurt my feet from walking than to stay inside the house and hurt my butt from sitting.

We decided to meet in Megamall but since my friend was exploring another route I arrived at our meeting place earlier than her. So I went with a date with myself. I went to some toy stores and gift shops. Somehow at that moment I hoped that I already have a job. There’re so many things I want to buy for myself and for other people too bad that I don’t have any extra money with me.

When she finally arrived we had lunch and went to church by walking there. It was a long walk and I was thankful that I wore flats that day. We stayed there for a while praying silently. I prayed about lots of things that at some point it seems like I’m talking casually rather than praying. I haven’t done this for a while. My heart felt lighter and at ease after that.

I wonder if you know where we went

We then stayed at a bookstore for a while just reading on the floor.

Inside the mall...

My friend never rode on an MRT before and that was her first time. I was just glad I was with her. I remembered my first time riding the MRT. It was very exciting.

We then went to Trinoma. Since our other friends were not there yet, we went around the mall. I bought myself some USB-powered light. I was really planning to buy one. We also went to Comic Alley where I found this cute Len plushie. I wanted to buy it so bad. I was holding on to it the whole time we were inside the store. I almost imagined that it was mine.

Isn't he adorable?

But alas, I don’t have enough money so I had to leave it there. GOODBYE LEN!

Len Kagamine... soon you'll be mine

After that was karaoke. Because of the rain they were late. I was really worried about the time because I needed to go back home.

Although it annoys me to no end, I just had to go home before everyone. We just had dinner and they send me home.

Afterwards I learned that they went to another place to drink after I left. Even though I was a little envious I still stopped myself from reacting childishly. I believe that next time I would be with them until we all go home. Stupid curfew. Someday… I won’t have one anymore! Yeah!

Point of no return

I really don't know why I only find out my mistakes only during the point of no return. I really hate it. I really want to be careful all the time and try to think before doing anything but in the end I end up regretting what I'd done. 

I really hate it. I hate myself everytime I do stupid things like that. 

But hating myself, regretting what I've done etc... really can't help me. 

So that's the cue for me to stop wallowing in self pity and start doing something to solve my problem. The problem is clear... I know the solution... now the part I hate the most -waiting time. 

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I'm going back to LB... although it's not until Sunday but I'm starting to get excited. I want to sleep in my new room and start a new semester. I also have to fix my schedule and make sure to get 10 units, fix my INC status in 2 of my majors and of course fix my life before actually starting a new chapter in my life.


I just hope that I won't screw up. The thing I hate the mst about myself is that the simplest problems are only in front of my face waiting to bite me but I just don't see it...

so I screw up... and the problem became bigger because I'm in the point of no return.

Random event

I did not expect that before I would go home I would first swim in a resort.

It was fun. I was supposed to not talk to him the whole holy week vacation. But since we went to a resort... my plan changed.

We had the whole resort to ourselves. It is like reserving the whole resort or rather it is as if we own it.

It was truly an experience especially the part when I was just sitting on the hot spring with him.

Because of that I would like to add another long term goal... and that is to have a swimming pool [or a hot spring] outside my house... in the backyard to be precise.

And if I would like to relax I would just go there and relax.

The UP Diliman Trip

I have no more money. If I were that rich then I would go to MOA [Mall of Asia] or some other malls out of whim... but I was forced to go to Diliman... and it turned out to be one hell of an adventure.

oble... the UPD version

We woke up extra early that day... no matter how freezing the temperature is or how cold the morning shower is... we still managed to wake up and get ready to leave the vicinity of UPLB.

<---this is my roommate Airish... she's inside the bus. ^_^

We took the HM bus until SM Megamall then took another bus so that we could take a jeep to go inside UP Diliman. UPD is not that different from my beloved UPLB... even though considering biases of course I would say that UPLB has a more pleasant atmosphere than that of Diliman.


Ecay, Airish and Maia while waiting for another roommate--->
(wala pang suklay yan! >.<)

So then after seeing ate Sheila we went to the Main Library. Since my ID was not validated I cannot enter the building (stupid Ren-chan!). So Ate Sheila and I went to a random computer shop and searched the net. We went back to the Main Lib so that we could all eat our lunch. Since they were taking too long Ate Sheila and I decided to eat before them.

We then decided to go to Palma Hall next so that Ecay could look for the book she needed for her research. She was having a hard time maybe because her topic is not that easy to find. However, Palma Hall and all it's rooms... well except for the C.R.... are closed. It's a Saturday. Understandable.

see we're walking.... XD

We then walked and walked, trying to find libraries and the references we need.

I don't know... I think we're lost.

But thanks to modern technology and of course the cellphone we did not get lost. You see Ate Sheila has a friend who works in Diliman and my high school classmate goes to Diliman. So we were both texting them for directions. Good thing we did not really got lost.

We then went to the College of Arts and Letters. We found nothing there. It was really quiet since there are no students. I also like LB this way. I like people but sometimes too much makes me want to kill them all... just joking. I just don't want too much noise those people make.

The roads even look cleaner when no one is around. Or maybe it is really clean. We then walked and walked. On Tuesday the University of the Philippines will be celebrating its 100 years. Too bad. This clean road will soon turn out to be a nightmare. I can imagine plastic bottles and trash everywhere. I just hope that the people would try to lessen their trash. It is such a pity that other people cannot appreciate cleanliness like this.

When we finally got hungry... err... again. We ate Pringles! Ate Sheila prefers the green one but since I was with Airish when she bought the Pringles I picked out my favorite flavor -original! I love red. I also love Pringles.

<---me and my one true love. XD

So we ate and sat. Our feet are already sore from all that walking. Since the sun is setting we decided to go home already. We still have a long way to go back to our beloved UPLB. We decided to ride an MRT. Actually this was the first time I would ride it without my parents. I was a little scared. Added to that fact I also saw three firefighter truck while we were going to the terminal. Is that an omen? I hope not. But when we got there it was fine. We rode the MRT and got to our destination in no time. We sat on the cart where only females are allowed. In that way we can avoid being crowded.

We then went to SM Megamall. Since Maia and Ecay must go home early they decided to leave us in SM. There we ate dinner and then went home.

It was a very tiring day but it was fun.

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