I have a thing for boxes

I really enjoy buying boxes or any kind of container for my things. I enjoy the feeling of putting my stuff in an organized manner inside the fresh store-bought container. The idea of keeping something and helping my future self to have an easier time to look for things… since the thing is already stored neatly… gives off a calming effect on me.

As I put my socks and towels inside a box I imagine putting also my negative emotions with it. The frustrations, stress, and annoyances will also go inside that box to be stored and to be looked into some other time. The moment I shut the lid I have this feeling of finality when I entrust my stuff to a future version of myself whom I don’t know yet. Whoever this future me is, I am sure she will look into the box and its contents as well. Who knows? The future me might thank me for this. Like a time capsule of emotions, where an older future me will look into it and learn something from the feelings of the past. I think this is what I enjoy thinking about the most.

Boxes are really nice.

I just hope that there won’t come a time when I have to put your body inside a small box too. :3

Rainy day thoughts: 7152014

I am in the middle of browsing stuff on the internet. A storm is passing by. I can hear the winds picking up and the rain falling outside. Here is me, hoping that the storm will pass by without actually causing harm to anyone. 

And out of nowhere I remember this one rainy night. It was a school night but I have forgotten what day it was, I remember that I was going home late from school. I was so afraid that time. I was scared that my mother would scold me because I went home late. It wasn't really late but it was already dark by then... so technically it is later than the usual time that I get home. I can't really remember the details anymore of why I was late... I think it was a legit school thing... but what is that school thing?

Nope. I can't remember. 

However, more than the specific details all I can remember is this fear of going home late. It was more than hearing from my mother when I get home. I don't really like the idea of going home when it's already dark out. No specific reason for it, I just don't like it. And it was not the kind of feeling where I want to rush home because I'm scared. The later it was, the more I don't want to go home. 

It's funny now that I think back. I was an amusing little girl. 

What amuses me more was that I even thought of stopping the tricycle into one parlor/beauty salon and asking the people there if they could take me in because I don't want to go home. I was seriously convinced that the people working there actually lived in their shops with their small beds and personal quarters inside that door that lead to god-knows-where. 

I was not just thinking about it. I was serious. I was already imagining what my life would be in the parlor.

But of course, that was all in my head. I didn't ask the driver to stop and I went home. My mother scolded me but it was ok. I went to bed and the day went on...

Someday, I would like to look back on all my anxieties now and laugh at them too. 

PS: I have no idea how they do shit in a parlor. I have 0 skills in making anyone pretty.

Since we're accomplishing stuff...

Been a while since I last blogged something but I am feeling productive today so let's write. Actually... I was productive this whole weekend.

I got a new phone. A red, flip phone too! I just can't resist the call of a shiny red flip phone. Nice timing too since my phone's keypad died and I needed to text people!

I got to visit the ophthalmologist. New glasses are coming soon. :)

I also managed to sew most of the stuff I needed to sew. Hades' hand stuff, cape and the main toga. I also got my costume and finished the tassel.



I also watched Uta Pri maji love live 3rd stage today as well. I cried at Kiiyan's solo song.. but what's new? XD


Also, something annoyingly funny happened to me. I lost 50 pesos because someone somewhere gave me fake money. I don't know where because I went to the mall to buy stuff so I didn't really trace my money. It's funny because I was duped by something so stupid.



JUST LOOK AT IT! WTF.

Anyway so there.. 2 more weeks before the con and I think I can pull it off.

For the first time in forever I finally uploaded a cover

It's already 2014 and I don't have a cover yet... I cancelled my Christmas and New Year's covers since I wasn't feeling well during the holidays. I know I have been lazy in recording and uploading stuff in youtube... heck! I've also been lazy in updating my blog... I did become lazy last year... 

But I said to myself: My goal this year is to make a cover a month!

This time it includes duets and chorus as well since it really eats a lot of my time.

So now here is my January cover. It's a duet with Chinx, who did an amazing job as Elsa. *u* Even if I didn't want to jump into the Frozen bandwagon I really felt a need to record/cover at least one of the movie's songs. I liked the songs and the constant LSS attacks were not helping. So as soon as I heard Chinx was going to do Elsa I thought that "hmm... maybe this is my chance to sing this song, why not?" 

I was supposed to do Scarlet Bomb from Needless for January but that song was not cooperating with me at all. So I had to find another one... yay for Chinx saving me from my trivial worries /o/

Behind the scenes

During recording I felt that Anna was annoying... or rather... my Anna was annoying. Especially the lines "It's ok you can just unfreeze it." after I hear that line I always have the urge to slap Anna or shoot myself. But then after a few comments from my roommates I realized that the reason why I felt like that was because my Anna was too "cute" and it was annoyingly done. XD 

So apparently there are some lines from our version that did not match the original at all, especially the spoken lines.. so aside from fixing the timing in the mixing I also adjusted the timing of the original scene from the movie... that is better than re-recording right?

In the end, even though I know there are so many things wrong with my lines I'm still pretty proud of this duet... hopefully I can move on from Frozen. Hopefully....

Umbrellas and stuff

While my officemate and I were walking a man we met on the street gave us an umbrella. He looked like a Chinese businessman and was decent in every way. My officemate thought that he's selling is the umbrella but apparently he just wanted us to have it. Actually it looked like it was a gift for him since there was a torn Christmas label on it I'm not really sure what his issues were with the gift but he wanted us, random strangers, to have it. That was nice. Free umbrellas and the year only just begun.


I then remembered that I also do that sort of thing. When I don't want what I'm eating anymore I give it to a beggar. Some people would say 'baka trip kayo nun' or 'nagandahan sa inyo' since both of us were female but I believe we just looked like two girls who needed an umbrella or two stranger that he can take the thing out of his hands.

So what's the big deal? It's just an umbrella? You don't have to blog about it.

It's not really about that. Lately, I noticed that people are nicer. Not that they aren't nice before but aside from the umbrella there have been security guards helping me get my doughnut even if it they were not in the position to help me, taxi drivers that are really kind and amazing in their own way and lots of other stuff.

I might be over thinking this but what if my friend was right...that these are omens. Whether good or bad I do not know.

Well, it could just be that the world is still nice despite of what is happening around me. It just feels weirdly sweet... like some trap that I might fell in to. This anxious feelings are so weird... what have I become?

But on another note, in a way of justifying my odd feelings, I think noticing is still better than taking them for granted. I am thankful for each little act of kindness. I put them to heart even if it's just nothing for the giver. I do this both for strangers and people I know. All your kindness are cherished even if they are forgotten. I mean, the memory might be wiped away but the feelings will stay.

ah and this turned into a cheesy post again... oh well.

So this is officially my first entry for the year! I do hope that these are good omens and I'll do my best to be kinder to others as well... so kind that they will doubt like this too.. mwahahahaha

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Cosplaying Sakuya

With only about 3 weeks (give or take a day or two) left until the event I decided to FINALLY cosplay Sakuya. Why "finally"? Because I've been thinking of dressing up as her for many years now. In fact, the wig I used for the costume was already more than 2 years old. Yessss... that long.

Sakuya Izayoi from Touhou

So there, after computing and realizing that cosplaying Sakuya won't ruin my budget I've talked to my seamstress and asked her to start making my costume. She was really fast... finished the whole dress in just a few days. However, we had a major problem. At some point she didn't understand me while we were talking about the costume... so instead of making the dress blue she used black. It fit nicely and was very lovely but I can't use it since it's a different color. :( So she had to re-do it and I spent more money on it than expected. Don't worry though. It's still on budget.

because having a Nexus7 forces me to take selfies

In my side of the cosplay-making process I had to make the weapons, prepare the wigs and buy contact lenses. 

So here is how I made the knives from illustration boards and boxes. Since my hot glue gun suddenly stopped working I had to use tape to attach the whole thing together. I coated it with paper mache to make it stronger and then painted it. I also coated it with white glue and water solution since I felt like it... 

During the event itself I saw some other Touhou cosplayers and that made me really happy since I'm not the only Touhou cosplayer there. But then again... I guess that would be impossible since Touhou is famous.

At Cosmania

So yeah that's it for being Sakuya... but surely I'll use this costume again some other time. I enjoyed dressing up as her.

Singapore trip: planning for AFA

So last week the official website for AFA was launched and I FINALLY got to see who I am expecting to see this November.  Now here is the bad news I want to watch May'n but I want to attend Valvrave Night too (even though I haven't seen Valvrave except for the rape scene :P ). Also I was pleasantly surprised to see that there are seiyuu attending the event. OMG. Takizawa Akira and Maou-sama. How can I not attend that.

So two nights!? orz

Anyway, hoping for the best. Hang in there savings we can do this! 

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