Traditional.vampire != Twilight.vampire;

Before I hit the age of 17 or something closer I used to always wrap around my blanket or hair around my neck or sometimes I place my hands there whenever I sleep. I was always afraid back in those days that some sneaky creature would go inside my room and try to bite me in the neck. At least with something to cover it the creature might have a hard time biting it or at least

I would know… somehow.

Vampires. This kind of monster had scared the hell out of me as far as I can remember. Until now I am still afraid of them… I mean your blood being sucked to death is really a scary thing… but becoming one of them… bloodthirsty and monstrous… is even scarier.

I could remember myself back when I was still a child. I had written a story about vampires. After having consecutive nights of nightmares I burned it and scattered its ashes.

Knowing their weaknesses, as what books and movies had told me, made me feel at ease. They can’t hurt me when the sun is out (but what about fluorescent lights… maybe that’s the reason I don’t like sleeping in the dark… but that’s another story). They are afraid of garlic but I also don’t like to eat them. Crosses and prayers can kill them but some movies say they don’t… there goes my faith.

In the beginning I was truly scared of vampires… and then there was Twilight…

If you don’t know Meyer’s Twilight then you are really left behind. Even if you haven’t read the book or watched the movie… at least you might have heard of it… or have seen a crazy fangirl.

Twilight’s vampires are different from the vampires I had known and feared. They are not afraid of crosses. (sigh. I always believed that it could kill them. Sigh.) They don’t have fangs. They don’t turn into bats. (Yeah I watch cartoons… a lot!) They have venom in their teeth, which can be used to turn another person into a vampire (not the drinking of vampire’s blood thingy). Unlike a vampire story I know, they become more civilized when they drink animal blood and the opposite when they drink human’s blood. And the last one which I think differs them from the rest of the vampire world… they don’t die in the sunlight…they sparkle and shine. Nice eh?

Because of the story and the nature of the vampires in the story, Anne Rice babies (people who were raised knowing Lestat’s story) would think that Twilight is another fan fiction involving vampires… only proofread.

I once told a friend of mine the story of Twilight… he was rolling his eyes, looking at me incredulously and telling stories contradicting everything about the vampires in that story. He just asked me to narrate the story… we are not discussing vampire legend. I tried to not say anything that could lead into a serious debate. I had done that quite a lot before that encounter… and I don’t want to do it again.

I like Twilight and New Moon and Eclipse (especially Eclipse) and Breaking Dawn and probably Midnight Sun (if it would be published in this lifetime)… even if:

1) Their stories are somehow predictable. In Eclipse, I already know that it was Victoria

behind the newborns even before it crossed any of the characters’ minds.

2) Some of the characters lack development. Esme will forever just be a mother-figure… maybe because vampires are never-changing? And I dislike Bella’s clumsiness… it was as if she was born clumsy... she only became graceful when she turned into a vampire.

3) It’s a cheesy romance novel. If you don’t like this genre DON’T read any of the books!

4) It ruins the image of vampires. Most of my friends strongly agree with this.

5) The characters are Mary-Sue. *ehem* Edward Cullen *ehem*

Even with all these combined I still love the four Twilight books. I have to admit that I am an Edward fangirl and I’m proud of it. I love the way he cares about Bella. I love the way Edward overreact just so that she could be protected. Edward resembles all of my beloved characters thus, loving him more.

Every time I read the book I could almost see big hearts pouring from the story and hitting me. I like it. It was like cupid puncturing me with his heart arrows.

It is a good love story. I fell in love with the story that’s why I think it was well-written. Even until the end (Breaking dawn… also broke a lot of fan’s hearts) I still think that it was a good story.

Even though many people discourage me from reading Twilight I would still continue to be a fan of the movie and the books. I don’t care if they don’t like it whenever I squeal because of Edward or Carlisle Cullen. I don’t care… because I know that whenever I read the books I become happy. (happy can’t even cover that feeling) I know that whenever I feel sad watching the movie makes me feel a little better.

I am also grateful for Twilight because it made me less afraid of vampires. I am still afraid but at least I don’t wrap something around my neck anymore.

I had realized that vampires are truly fictional characters. They aren’t real... so people could create and recreate characters like that easily. We should not stick to believing that Lestat is the real vampire and Edward is a fake because we would never know who the real vampires are. We could never prove that either one is the real vampire. Maybe real vampires sparkle in the sun… we would never know. We just have to be open-minded. We may have our vampire preference but please try to respect other people’s reference. Humans are not the same… maybe vampires too.

So what if it’s not normal? So what if I’m acting like an addict? So what if I am a crazy drooling fangirl?

I know that when you have also found the story you would truly love you would understand how I feel. And if you ever find it I would not criticize or discourage you… because I know how you feel… we just have the different objects we focus this feeling on.

I respect the point of view of my friends regarding the whole vampire issue… but I sure hope that someday they would respect mine and leave my Edward alone.

This debate is not over yet. I know that there would soon be someone who would talk to me about this again… argh do I have to? I think this battle would only be over when reality would show what vampires truly are.

But I hope that would never happen.

--Ren

Uninstall

I have not seen the anime but I loved the song...

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And here I thought that my dream of acting on that stage would come true… but I should’ve known better than to be part of a world that I chose not to be in…

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My place is the world of science where everything must be accurate, precise, certain… a constant must only have one value and one value alone for if it has other values then the final answer might not be trusted at all. 

Your place… well the arts with all its beauty and splendor is wonderful. One object can have many interpretations that depend on the emotions it stirs inside of people. Even if a thing can be of different value to different people it would still be considered significant.

As I stare onto your realm where fantasy and reality collide, I can’t help but wonder… what if I chose your world over mine?

Would I still be the same? Would I meet the same people? Could I become your friend?

I know that I do not have any right to not be contented. My world is as beautiful as yours so I don’t have any right to whine or complain. 

I have my friends. You have yours. You have your things to do. I have mine. 

I know that every now and then we would meet each other. Maybe at some diner or at the streets or even worse we might be seatmates in one of our classes. It may be too much but I would like to talk to you someday… like what we do with our friends. 

But if I would be an unlucky man then I might not meet you at all. You would die without knowing that I lived. You would never know that there was a certain me who took interest to a certain you the moment I saw you on the stage. During that time when fantasy, the world I longed to be, took the whole of you and presented you in a different light. No! You would never know that because I wouldn’t let you. I would not let you know that there was a certain me who wanted so much to be in your world. 

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By: Edralyn Lorenz O. Andrade
“The certain me who would certainly forget…”

I'm dying this day... I'm dying today

Ikamamatay ko talaga ang mga miyerkules ko...

grabe ngayon lang ako nakapagpahinga..

Minamalas ata ako sa 124 at ayun nag system shutdown nanaman ang sanity ko ako sa huling mga minuto ng klase... kelangan ko na talagang pigilan yun.

Tapos sa 150 lab ayun wala pa rin... parang umuulit lang ang lahat last year the only difference ay hndi na Jam ang katabi ko kundi isang Chad na.

Buti na lang at nakabawi ako sa 150 lecture... eto ang masarap kapag inuulit mo na ang subject kasi naaalala ko pa rin ang mga piraso ng mga napag-aralan ko last year ha memorize ko pa nga formula nung Xr nung False position eh... my gawd!

natapos ko na ayusin electives ko kulang na lang ay pirma. Nakuha ko na groupings ko sa LTS2 at oo ikamamatay ko rin ang Lunes ko lalo na tuwing may exam...

hay naku buti naman nagawa ko lahat ng naka-lined up kong gagawin... bukas naman uli...

NEXT!

Start of a full blown... umm...

Classes are starting as well as the rainy days. I know that summer is finally over. I hope I could make this semester a truly memorable and enjoyable one.

I am taking LTS 2 (Literacy Training Service) where we would actually teach little children. Well, sometimes other LTS students are not teaching children... anyway I am so excited. I really wanted to be a teacher when I was young and enrolling in this is like making that dream sort of come true.

I just hope I would make a good job.

Aside from LTS all my courses are my majors. I sure hope I would not die because of that. Although I have not reached the required number of units I still feel that things would not be easy for me.

I just wanted to have something on my blog today that's why I wrote something now.

Wish me luck this sem!

Real air

There was once a quote from the Matrix where Morpheus asked "Do you think that 's air you're breathing?" or something similar to that...

If he would ask me I would answer "No." What I am breathing right now is death.

I was riding an ordinary bus that time. Looking out the window I noticed how polluted the city is. When I look ahead all I can see are the cars hiding in the smoke they leave behind.

I hate how those vehicles give out black fumes... it is as if they want to kill everyone. Murderous people... and yet they don't even know that what they are doing is practically murder.

I yawned... in the middle of what I was doing I felt my chest hurt. I think I had inhaled some of the smoke. I hate that feeling...

If there was one thing that I don't like in this world that would be air pollution. It is just to much that it is not humane anymore. Many people die because of this problem and yet no one really pays that much attention too it. Especially the smokers.
I once saw a man with his child. The child was walking. I think the child was about 5-6 years old. It was a cute sight but the only thing I didn't like was the fact that the child's father was smoking while walking with her. Little did the father know he was already killing his daughter slowly.

Sigh. I still hope that there's a future for all of us... and I still believe that there would be a day that I would wake up breathing REAL air.

That day you told her to come with you

This is a new story of mine... I finally finished it after many failed attempts of writing it. I don't want to write it at first because I think that it would not turn out good... but I wrote it anyway since I have no other story in in mind.

I don't know if it is good or not.



If you ever read this story please leave a comment. Thanks