Sunday, December 23, 2007

Something to think about

Do you believe in destiny? I do. I think even if we try to run away from it we are still destined somehow to run away from it. There is such a thing as freewill... being a Christian I truly believe that God gave us a sense of choice.

However, you can't blame me from believing in destiny. There are some things that even coincidence can't understand or explain. There are some events, some group of people, some interactions, some things that are so coincidental or accidental that it must me fate.

The thought of destiny is also for the romantic type. It's one of the most common theme in novels about love. It is also good to think that there is someone out there that is meant to be your partner. But, as we now, life is never fair. Have you ever considered that maybe it is also your destiny to be alone? Have you ever thought that your destiny might not even be close to a happy ending?

I have thought about that many of a times. It was something worth thinking about.

Although I hate thinking... but that is another story... another article perhaps?

I've also been trying to predict my destiny and I have not been close to anything at all. If I were able to rpedict my destiny then what's the fun in that?

I don't like knowing what the future brings. If you already know what's going to happen tomorrow then you might not want to live at all. I think that is also the reason why people enjoy their lives. It is because everyday is a new day. Everyday is something new. "You can't step on the same river twice," as one philosopher would put it. You would have a reason to live your life because you don't know what tomorrow would bring. Am I being to optimistic? Probably. BUT if destiny already have a plan for us... or even God for that matter have already laid out our schedule for our whole life then won't it be a spoiler for you to know what it already is.

So what if you know that you're going to die someday... do you know how? Or when?

Saturday, December 22, 2007

Christmas post

Christmas is certainly one of the Holidays I would never ever trade for. First, because as a Christian it is the day that the Lord was born... of course some would say that it is not the exact day He was born... but if we go deeper into those complications then we might never celebrate His birthday. Second, because like any other occasion it is one reason where I can be happy for no particular reason. I like that.

I've been reading Artemis Fowl again. I think I was reading the same book last Christmas. But then again that Christmas was different from now.

It's only four days until Christmas but you could already feel it in the air. No matter how many times I am reminded that the world is rotting and that the people here are becoming poorer or life is becoming tougher, I would be forced to dismiss that thought because of the things I see around me.

I wonder why people always have that queer sense of happiness. Like I said, this is the season when one can smile for no particular reason. It is a holiday so we are all [forced] to be happy.

I like Christmas but sometimes I like the days before Christmas more than the day itself. It is the preparations for the grand day that makes it more exciting. The lights, the songs and, of course, the gifts. It is the preparation of these things that makes Christmas... well Christmas.

I also like Christmas because during these days I could finally rest. I tend to forget about everything about my school whenever I am home. That is why as much as possible I don't go home even if my house is only a couple of hours (say three hours) from LB. I just don't like to think about my acads when I'm home. Hey I'm home so I should rest and just be happy. When I'm home I can be myself again. I don't need to worry about who is looking at me, what other think of me or why I am like this... at home I can be me. The real me that my parents are required to accept.

Well I may not have the chance to write this Christmas... but oh well...


Friday, December 14, 2007

Random again...

"Sometimes life just makes me sick,
Makes me vomit really quick
Makes me jump and scream and fly...
Malabo ang buhay."

I was really nervous. It was already 2:00 and my topic for my Technical Writing course was still senseless. I don't know anything interesting about my course. BS Computer Science and I can't think of a topic?! I can't believe that I've been studying for three years and I can't apply what I've learned! How can I go on being like this? Would I survive? What about my SP or thesis?

I don't like being reminded of the fact that after I graduate I would actually put to use all these things that I've been cramming for three years so that I could put food into me and my family's mouth. It is in these hands and brain that I would entrust my life in that cruel outside world.

And so in the end, I thought about a rushed topic. I would just edit it again next week. All I want is to have something to pass when my professor asks about this requirement of the day.